A Place for my Head

Intro to the Avid Enthusiastic Gym Goer:Auds

2010-07-10T04:26:00.000-07:00

I'm an avid Gym goer these days, i would say i go diligently every single morning, to swim or jog because i have put on a little bit too much weight. Also, i have managed to find some badminton enthusiasts and players in TESCO, so i play badminton at least once a week now, sometimes twice. But still, it's not enough. Somehow, mo love for that sport is unfathomable. I miss squash very much. sigh.

I can see that i'm getting pretty round especially in the middle. I wake up at 6.15am sharp everyday to drive to the gym. How on earth did i manage to motivate myself to get my lazy fat ass out of bed is still a huge mystery even to myself. I'm sure you guys are wondering in disbelief.^^

Anyway, i feel good to be able to exercise a little before heading to work. I feel more energetic in the morning, and am able to work better. Hmm, my mood is better too. Strange, i know. well, as what people have said time and time again, when you exercise, your body releases endorphines, supposedly the feel good hormones. guess that explains it. :P

The Triumphant return of the Auds

2010-07-10T02:54:00.000-07:00

Hello. Yes, i know that i have disappeared for what seemed like the longest time in the entire time continuum. I have been pretty busy lately, and the usual laziness of course. what else could it have been, right? Here's an update

I'm still very much Alive, just a piece of information for people who are too narcissistic to even care.

In a blink of an eye, it has dawned on me that i have been working in Tesco for nearly 2 years now, about 1 year and 10 months to be precise. I'm adjusting very well here in KL. i'm enjoying my life here now.I'm happier.I used to be very home sick, and some other reasons and hated coming back to KL on every sunday night, but now, i'm doing ok. I like it here.

I used to regret coming to KL, but now, i'm proud, glad and realised that i've made the right decision. For i have learned things, exposed to things, and discovered things, things that i'll never learn, if i were to stay in Malacca, workwise and otherwise.

I'm proud to announce that i'm no longer the same old Auds. More mature?: It's for you to judge. I can still be unbelievably childish, mischievous at times. Just ask my NEW boss. She always says: "Audrey, it's ok if you are cheeky and playful at times, but when it comes to work, you have to get down to business" But i can say this: i'm definitely more independent, has turned into a deep thinker, and right now, the path infront of me is very darn clear.

I know what i want to achieve in life and will work my ass off to get it and realise what's my main priority. The one thing i have learned is I HAVE NO ONE TO LIVE FOR OR BE HAPPY FOR. The only person to live for and be happy for is AUDS, ME, MYSELF AND I. danke.

will be back. Auf Wiedersehen. Ciao

Kuantan Trip in Pictures

2010-04-30T12:41:00.000-07:00

i'm too lazy to elaborate. Here's a summary. 3 angels, 3 days, great time,great fun, fell asleep on the beach while gazing at a starry night, canoeing, sun burned, red like lobster and loads of fun under the sun. Speeding fine, flat tyre,waited by the roadside for 2 hours, conspiracy theories after conspiracy theories, none were true, good samaritans. Here are the pictures.

I want an Iphone

2010-04-30T11:27:00.000-07:00

I'm currently back home in my cosy Malacca town, in my cosy sanctuary of an air-conditioned room, flanked by my dearest parents and brothers and housekeeper and dogs. Ahh... it's good to be home. I've not been home for a month now due to my work, ice-hockey games and stuff. I miss home. I hate driving in KL because i more often than not get caught in the horrible jam. today itself took me 1.2o hours to get home. Usually, it'll only take me 20 mins. The drive back was horribly jam as well.

Right now, i cant wait for my bonus because i would seriously love to buy an Iphone, like seriously because it's the coolest toy ever. I was thinking of getting a new MP3
player as my current one is only 1 GB and i'm getting sick of the songs. But after i toyed with my brother's Iphone, i fell n love with it instantly because it's just cool, and it has GPS, something in which i had planned on getting ever since i worked in KL as i usually get fucking lost.

I want an Iphone. I want an Iphone. I want an Iphone. When i want something, i'll get it. Hopefully, by next month ^

BOOZE, BURGERS AND FRIES

2010-04-20T22:25:00.000-07:00

I'm literally getting really very round in the middle. Thanks to my fascinating addiction to the worst kind of food on the planet which are BOOZE, BURGERS, FRIES, ICE-CREAM, CHOCOLATES AND POTATO CHIPS. Indulging on these top most guilty sins ever, is so not very good for my physical shape.

Here's how it goes, i booze at least on a weekly basis now, i feast on Mc Donald's and Burger King at least 3 times in a week, sometimes 4, hell yea it's that bad, i indulge in ice-cream,heavenly chocolates and crunchy and tasty potato chips on an almost daily basis.

The worst part is that i hardly could find time anymore to do some serious cardiovascular exercise. I know it's the lamest excuse ever, but i really dont have time. I do have time during the weekends but my weekends are reserved for sleeping. Yes, i'm a pig ^^. the only good news is that i play badminton once a week with my colleagues, and my occasional ice-hockey playing, but i know it's never enough

I realised how super unfit and out of shape i am, when i couldnt put on my sexy clothings and i couldnt really run that fast anymore during badminton or squash. fuck

And also the unavoidable fact that my brothers has crowned me with a new nick name which is "fat girl". bummer.

I should get more exercise and stop burger king-ing and boozing. i know the later is never gonna happen, though. booyaa..

Regardless, i'm on a mission to lose the pounds so that i dont suffer from a heart attack or something due to all those trans fatty fats, enveloping my heart. Toi Toi Toi Auds!!

The fat girl has gotta go.

will be back with more

Guten Tag miene Freunde. Auf Wiedersehen

Jam, great food, loads of booze and strippers!!

2010-04-11T22:05:00.000-07:00

Last Friday (12.04.10), i attended another TESCO Celebrate Success company dinner, held at Courtyard Garden, somewhere around KL, and around Jalan Dungun, wherever that is. Yes, my sense of location and direction is freaking bad. Dont even bother asking me to look at a map, i'm doubly as bad at deciphering a map. Ask anybody. You'll go crazy if i were to have a map in my hands. ^^ I'll make you feel like tearing up the map into bits and pieces and swallow the entire thing and will make you feel like you have never seen a map before in your entire life. Yea, i'm that bad.:p. Compass, what's that? hehe.

As usual me and my colleague got lost on our way there and arrived fashionably late again. Tja. who cares. as long as we were there. Getting caught in a terrible jam on our way there on the sprint highway, didnt help much either. Sprint highway was freakishly, unreasonably bloody jam. I hate driving in KL because more or less, you'll get stuck in a jam for god-forbidden hours.The funny fact was that,apparently, we were supposed to use LDP, kinda to avoid the jam. Tja. But i swear, the map asked us to use Sprint Highway... so who's the culprit who drew the map?.. **&*&*((^^%^^$$^

Anyway,upon our arrival at the restaurant, all the pissy mood and grumbling over getting lost, getting caught in a jam, and the fact that we were dying of hunger were all forgotten. Courtyard Garden is a very nice restaurant and has a very cosy atmosphere. So i like it. The food and booze were good. The strippers were great as well. At least for the guys. :P. I drank pretty much that night,so much that i couldnt remember how many glasses of Hoegarden and Tiger beer i had consumed.

Still i managed to get my fat ass back home safely. Which is a good thing.

till then

That should be me

2010-04-03T12:06:00.000-07:00

I think Justin Bieber is very talented, cute and can really sing. I am currently hooked to his songs especially his latest song "baby". Anyway,this is my other favourite song from him."That should be me"

Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy
Do you do what you did when you
did with me
Does he love you the way I can
Did you forget all the plans
that you made with me
'cause baby I didn't

That should be me
Holdin' your hand
That should be me
Makin' you laugh
That should be me
This is so sad
That should be me

That should be me

That should be me
Feelin' your kiss
That should be me
Buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
till you believe that
That should be me

Yeah,
You said you needed a little time
for my mistakes
It's funny how you use that time
to have me replaced
But did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
Whatcha doin' to me
you're taken' him where we used to go
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart
it's working 'cause you know that

Chorus:

That should be me
Holdin' your hand
That should be me
Makin' you laugh
That should be me
This is so sad
That should be me

That should be me
Feelin' your kiss
That should be me
buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
till you believe that
That should be me

I need to know should I fight
for our love for this long
It's getting harder to shield
this pain in my heart

That should be me in your arms

I never should let you go

If only i can fly

2010-04-03T10:24:00.000-07:00

If only i can fly,

I'll fly far away from everyone and everything
I'll fly away from all this sadness and misery
I'll fly away from all the disappoinments that has bestowed upon me and
to avoid causing any disappointments in anyone.

Fly away from all the patronising people who thinks they can, just because they are smarter, or just simply put, people who are so fucking egoistic and narcissictic
Fly away from pretenders,fakers, opportunists, selffish fuckers who had the nerve to pretend to be there for me when i needed them the most,but have successfully evaporated into nought and i just dont hear from them anymore, whom i once dearly called miene freunde

Fly away from the crude reality of life

Fly away from me.

i guess every beginninng has an end. Eternal is fucked. We are the pilot of our lives but somehow certain things we cant control.

You better not screw me up for hell hath no fury

2010-03-31T21:48:00.000-07:00

I have sacrificed a cool fully sponsored 1 week holiday trip to Taiwan with my family all for nought. I am so disappointed, pissed and so not happy about the whole thing that i swear the ONLY retribution of it all by throwing something on someone's table could be the only thing that could provide me solace not so much of happiness. God i have sacrificed too much! No one knows how much and what i have sacrificed to put up with this fucking fucked up junk!!

I slogged my ass off like crazy,sheddded my blood, sweat and tears, trying very hard to impress all for the better good of my bread and butter, sacrificing the Taiwan trip, thinking that all these will be worth while,thinking and motivating myself that all those blood, sweat and tears will be paid off, will be appreciated and go noticed but hell no, all these have gone unnoticed, unappreciated, and in the end, the outcome is disappointing, unsatisfactory, demoralising, anger aggravating. I have really sacrificed ALOT.

I have to endure countless but never forgotten insults, taunts, crude criticisms, embarassments, from the very first day. I have given up my emotions, my life, for this and for what?? I'm so tired of this pointless fuck.. it's about time that i take a drastic action to show these people to never take me for granted. I'll prove to them that i dont fucking need them and they as a matter of fact need me. They have used me for their own advantage. I fucking hate it.

I might seem naive but you better watch your fucking ass because i'm a person who will not be played and used for hell hath no fury like Auds being sconned! Dont try me. It will be like treading in uncharted waters, never knowing what will be coming at you. DOnt say i didnt warn.

I'll show them now that the ball is in my court and they sure as hell better not fuck me up. or else.

Guten Tag

I love Greek Mythology

2010-03-30T22:32:00.000-07:00

As if my 13 hours a day, 5 days a week job in Tesco is not enough to get me all stressed up and occupied, currently i am also tutoring a bunch of 16 year old kids in Economics and English. I have been tutoring since the beginning of March and i would say it's going pretty well thus far. I'm tutoring on every Wednesdays, for 3 hours after my work. So, yea, it's pretty tiring having to maximise my brainpower and talk for 3 damn hours. Does it satisfy me or make me whole?erm not really :P

Which means that after work, i'll be busy with preparations for the classes. I think i have a thing for tutoring. The reason for me to start tutoring is because i love learning and trying out new things and explore. I love to challenge myself with new stuff. So this is one of it. Plus, i get paid for it. So tja, hence the additional motivation ^^

I'm now so addicted to Greek Mythology. Yea, the whole Kronos, Zeus, Poseidon, Hades, Hera, Hercules stuff. I'm right now reading Percy Jackson and the lightning thief and i am so hooked to the book right now. It's damn good. I love it. Sadly, i dont have much time. I read a few chapters a day before bed.

I really have to go. will be back.

bon jour

Trouble in retaining my 40 winks.

2010-03-30T22:04:00.000-07:00

These days, I have developed a very bad routine (though unwillingly) of waking up a couple of times in the midde of the night and in the wee hours of the morning even when i'm not supposed to be awake yet and am supposed to be dreaming in happy land. For instance, if i were to go to bed at around 12.3oam, then i'll wake up at 2.30am, 5 am, 6.15am, 6.45am... geezalooo... sigh. and my alarm clock is supposed to ring at 7am. Bloody hell... get my drift? This has happened for a few weeks now.It could be the stress from work and everything else in between. So, sometimes i'll feel a little bit tired at 7 am and kind of have the tendency to snooze till 7.45am and will be arriving at the office at 9am=late. tja.. hahaa

Yesterday was a considerably alright day for me. Mostly because I left my office at 6am to join my colleagues for badminton. Mind you, i hardly had the chance to leave my office before the darkening of the sky.^^ So, yea, it was something to shout about. My boss had wanted me to join her for a discussion but i told her, "boss, maybe tomorrow, i have a badminton date" I left the company anyways and left my boss with my her stunt " mouth-opening, shocked face"

Badminton was o my god heavenly fun. I have not played for 3 months now, and yea, i'm still as good.^^ We played for about 1.30 hours and by the end of it, i was dripping wet from head to toe. It was as if i had just stepped out of the shower, literally. It was really fun. Looking forward to play every week now.

Au revoir

About my lame life, missing budz, and England plans

2010-03-25T22:12:00.000-07:00

Hey Amigos.

I have been very busy with work and also busy with being lazy for the last few weeks, hence, the lack of posts here. It's as if my blog has gone into a deep hibernation and nearly refused to wake up.

Anyways, life is all about work. I have just realised that I have not spoken to my bestest budz in London for a month now. I used to call her on every Sunday evening and would chat for about an hour or so about life, work,clubbing and drunken nights, boys, and crappy stuff.

Hmm, i recall a very funny drunken incident, which happened maybe 3 years ago. It was her birthday and I called her to wish her and she was like giggling during the entire 10 mins conversation and sounded weird. She said that she had been drinking alot and then suddenly she said " O,shit!it's so dark and i cant see my fingers" I was like, "erm, are you having a power failure"? and she replied " no000., it's because i turned off the lights, stupid.."i was like.... "wtf" haha. clearly somebody was drunk. She's the only person that knows how to cheer me up, ever since i was a kid. On the bright side, buddy will be touching down on Malaysian soil on the 30.03.2010, i think. Cant wait to see her.

And i too cant wait to travel up to England end of this year, if all goes according to plan. I intend to be there around 2 weeks or more. might drop by Switzerland.

Have to stop now. Auf Wiederzehen miene freunde

CNY 2010

2010-02-16T07:47:00.001-08:00

The weather has been o so crazily freakishly blazingly bloody hot. I hate hot weathers. Because i more often than not feel sick, feel very tired and get bad migraines because of it. I'm coming down with a fever, sore throat and a flu already. damn it and today is only the 4th day of CNY.. bummer. On the bright side,i still have 11 days to celebrate, to stuff myself with food,to drunk myself with booze, gamble and collect loads of angpows. Plus i have every reason to leave the office early, everyday for the next 11 days... muahahaha. Lady luck is on my side this year as i'm on a winning streak at the gambling tables ^^

Anyways, Chinese new year celebrations this year was alright, albeit it was a very short holiday for me. It was of course an absolute pleasure and great to be home again and to be surrounded by people who loves me the most: my family. The food and booze was great, angpows were even better, gambling was fun, though my mind was often else where. The open house party was fun. It's nice to be surrounded by friends.

I'm now back in kl. I've to stop now as i've currently working. Reality bites. Guten tag

I Still Miss You

2010-02-16T06:28:00.001-08:00

A year has passed and i still miss you very much.
A year has passed and there's never a single day that i dont think of you.
A year has passed and not a single second, minute, or hour of the day in this life of mine, that i dont love you, miss you and think of you.
Do you know what it's like to still love you and miss you so much when i know that i can never get you back?
Do you know what it's like to not be able to see you, talk to you, hold and hug you anymore, when i love you so much?
Do you know what is it like to live and drown everyday and everynight in memories of us?
Do you know what is it like to live everyday hoping that things would be different, that this is just a dream?
Do you know what is it like to hope that i could turn back the clock to undo things that have been said or done?
Do you know what is it like to live everyday knowing that no matter what i do, i can never get u back?
Do you know what is it like living everyday loving you and knowing that you dont give a fuck about me?
Do you know that a year has passed, i'm still living everyday, still missing you and loving you, longing to see u, talk to you and hug you again, even if i've been given only one more day to live?
I know you dont.
It's ok. No matter what, i still do.
I'm doing well.
I'll just have to grit my teeth and soldier on.

Same time next year. Till Then.

Ich Vermisse Dich Ganz Ganz Fest

I am here for your entertainment.

2010-01-31T06:57:00.001-08:00

Since i am a lame person, here are some pics to entertain you.

Auds is Tote Hose

2010-01-31T05:59:00.000-08:00

Tote Hose is generated from the name of one of my favourite German Rock bands "Die Toten HOsen". In my humble opinion, they fucking rock!! The direct translation is "The Dead pants". My all time favourite German Rock band is of course RAMMSTEIN and followed closely by Die Artze, which means "The Doctors". O, I like Die Krapps and Die Happy as well.

Anyway, when i say, "I am Tote Hose" it means, there's nothing much going on in my life. I'm literally dying of boredom.

By the way, my weekend was reasonably fun. Here's what i did.

1.Tuesday- Yes, it's not a weekend, but i went to watch the movie "The Legion' with a friend. The movie was only OK. It was very Resident Evil... Nothing to shout about

2. Friday- Went to a Salsa Club with Adele and friends and tried Salsa Dancing. Erm, it was pretty weird, ackward and strange, but nonetheless still fun. It's something relatively new to me. Those who knows me, knows that i cannot dance. i'm probably the worst dancer on the planet. I'm a very stiff person, as far as stiffness is concern. I was born with 2 left feet, literally. I am purely a SPORTS person. Throw any kind of sports at me and I'll play and can play pretty well. Shopping is NEVER s aport. I fucking hate shopping.
Anyways, other than dancing, i do what i do best. BOOZING.:)

3.Saturday- Had to do market survey, but it was still ok. Went clubbing at Zouk with colleagues. I had loads of fun and had a great time and of course as usual, i BOOZED ALOT. I was quite drunk, but managed to drive home safely. When i got home, i could hardly walk straight, and collapsed immediately onto my bed and passed out.

4. Sunday- Woke up still drunk and have the worst hang over. As a result of that, i was feeling very tired and lousy, today. Continued my market survey, went to the office for abit. SO that's it.

O, when i was at the Salsa Club, i witnessed a very intimate dance, called "Bachata Dance" The dance involves two people, leaning on each other and gyrating. So, it looks like sex or dry humping. It's cool. Would love to learn that, o wait, i dont have nobody to gyrate with... bummer.

Guten Tag Miene Freunde.

Sarcasm rocks and kills at the same time

2010-01-14T05:58:00.001-08:00

Ok, so Sarcasm in many cases is not healthy and may hurt you, people around you, people who loves you or if people already hates you, they'll hate you like ten times more.^^

In any case, i'm a very sarcastic person, at least that's what most people told me. all the time 24/7, i am sarcastic. When having a normal conversation, be it with my boss, parents, friends, lover, i am sarcastic. I tell sarcastic jokes ALOT and most of the time, people dont get my sarcasm. They dont know when i'm being sarcastic or not. It's not that i try hard at being Sarcastic, i think it's a gift from above, that Sarcasm just hits me naturally. Hence, are you at all surprise that my favourite TV sitcom is actually Dr. House.. ^^ I enjoy my gift of Sarcasm as not many people are "gifted".

My brother calls me a hypocrite. For instance, when i swear that i'll never drink, i drink like a camel.

when i swear i wont smoke and hate smokers, well, i still dont smoke, but i was very tempted to light a cigarette recently due to huge amount of stress from all factors. But, i didnt. I dont want to be categorised as a smoker.

I also swore not to stoop to certain levels or do certain things but somehow on a light note, i caved in to not so medieval things. and did them.

Hence my brother calls me a walking contradiction. I set principles in my life, but somehow, i always contradict myself.. i say something in a minute and will go against it the next. teehhehehe. That's an attractive trait aint it.

Another interesting fact, i sms in full. no short forms. I dont understand short forms. I always have trouble deciphering short formed smses especially my mum's. For instance my mum will text me something like " ? i s the x?" when i read that, i was like "what the fuck" Could you ever guessed what she meant...

anyways, i was really wondering why does my heart beat like crazy whenever i see him around? Why do i have the jitters and creepy crawlies in my stomach? Why do i get so shy and nervous?

Why do i look forward to seeing him and if i dont, i'll feel down? Why? But the saddest part of it all, we are impossible. We will never be together... I know it too well. Who the fuck am i kidding?

Like i've said, he's the prince, i'm just a peasant living on the streets, shivering in the bitter cold weather, with shredded drags which are supposed to be my clothes,weak and ill from hunger, suffering from frost bites on my toes and fingers, toes nibbled by rats,cardboard box as my shelter,begging for money for food so that i can just survive for another bitter day.

Guten Tag

What's new with Auds?

2010-01-11T05:49:00.000-08:00

What's new with Auds?

1. Life still rocks. Still relatively good.
2.Though sometimes sucks to the bone, but, nonetheless still good.
3.Enjoying life to the max and having an awesome rollercoaster but yet nevertheless a pretty fun-filled ride.
4.I'm at awe and amazement and still unable to fathom the thoughts of certain people,unable to decipher how certain peoples' brains are wired and never understood their tangled intentions, their crudeness, selfishness,rudeness, oblivion.
5.Still am disappointed at being a disappointment. Will never ever be not disappointed at the disappointment. Get my drift?
6.Dont hate my past, forgave my past but never forgot, love my past, grateful for my past.
7. If i were to say I dont miss my past, i am so fucking lying.
8. Hence the phrase' DOnt lie, lying is bad, that's why, ya la"
5.80% of my life revolves around Tesco.
9.I Live, Eat, Breath,Sleep, am dedicated to Tesco. I'm brain-washed by Tesco. Not sure whether my Boss appreciates this or not.
10.But tja. Kinda thinks Tesco rocks, hence the brain-washed part of Tesco.
11. I love Tesco and love my job (i think)
11.I'm a workaholic 0r what my boss likes to call " a serious case of efficiency problem" though i seriously beg to differ.
12.Yet, i just shut my mouth because if i were to say something..
13. The question of " why do you like to argue with me" or "you think you are smart ass" phrases could be heard loud and clear across departments...
14.hence the embarassment.. i'm use to it though... or should i say, i just shut my mind and ears.
15.Hence the phrase " are you even listening to me" will pop up as well.
16. I still love my job
17.See my working life is complicated.
18. My parents have a different opinion all together. They asked me to quit every single day, literally.
19. They asks me to return to Malacca. i'm refusing.
20. Malacca has too many memories.
21. Why do you think i rather stay alone in KL. Sleeping or shall i say Hibernate throughout the whole weekend?
22.Since i'm a pro at shutting my ears hence no sound waves regarding "how i should live my life" ever travelled to my ears. i think it's called selective listening.
23. I'm still in KL working for TEsco. It has been officially 1 year and 4 months.
24. I'm still weird in many ways.
25. I had training in Piano for 12 years and most people love the practical part but I hate practical and LOVE the theory part. I had always aced the theory exams
26. I swear ALOT.
27. My most over used swears are: Bloody hell, what the fuck, are you fucking kidding me? Holy crap!, Holy smokes, fuck, what a bitch?, what a fucking bitch, what an asshole, FUCK.. that's all..
28. I think i'm quite ok in the SMART department.
29. I have a photographic memory.
30. but very bad with names and faces
31. if you do see me somewhere, feel free to smile
32.i might or might not smile back. I'll just stare blurly
33. Hence, I am the world's BLUREST PERSON
34. I'm also the world's LAZIEST PERSON
35. I'm very imaginative, literally.
36. Hence the constant day dreaming.
37. I LOVE ROCK MUSIC
38. I love ROCK CONCERTS
39. I love Chocolate, ice-cream, and chips and burgers
40. I love SPORTS. Badminton, jogging, Squash, Tennis, rock climbing. rollerblading
41. I love SCUBA DIVING.
42. LOVE CANOEIING, hiking
43. I love DOGS, almost despise cats
44. I LOVE SLEEPING.
45. I can really SLEEP
46. I sleep ALOT
47. i LOVE reading
48. LOVE BOOZING
49.Love Travelling
50. I'm a very curious person. I want to know the whats, whys, hows, whos
51. I can speak or dabble in German, French, Spanish BUT
52. I cant speak mandarin or any other CHinese dialects
5353. Hence, I'm weird.
54. if my colleagues make fun of me, I would just smile and laugh along.
55. It's either you love me or loathe me.
56. Either ways, i dont give a fuck
57. I might not be a looker but i dont give a fuck.
58. Too lazy to proceed. so till then.

NOte: Who the fuck am I kidding? I am so way out of his league. He's a prince and i am the Peasant. It's literally impossible. Should stop fantasing.

Guten Tag und Gurnacht Miene Freunde und Freundin.

Es Hast Bin Einze year ohne Dich. Ich Vermisse Dich Ganz Ganz Fest but Es OK. Mier isch Guetz. Danke.

C.O.N.J.U.N.C.T.I.V.I.T.I.S

2009-12-15T20:55:00.000-08:00

What's up mi Amigos.

Yes, that's right. The Auds is currently suffering from a bloody bad CONJUNCTIVITIS aka eye infection aka sore eyes aka pink eyes. Yes, so my both eyes are now pretty much bloodshot and swollen. The funny thing is, it's not itchy at all but damn freaking painful. I have been suffering from it since last Saturday and today's Wednesday and i'm still suffering from it. Bloody hell.

I was on medical leave on Monday and Tuesday, and due to all the phone calls within that 2 days and the thought of my workload piling up is pretty depressing which caused serious sleep deprivation. Heck i even dreamnt about work. Voila, i am back to work today, though i'm still having sore eyes. yes, yes, i know i am a very responsible employee...^^ Actually, my boss gave me a morning call today because she missed me too much... tja^^

My colleague had it first on last Thursday and i was in quite close contact with her, erm workwise, and not those naughty stuff, so dont let your imagination run wild, guys ^^hehe. Friday was a holiday for us Selangor people, many thanks to the Sultan of Selangor in lieu of his birthday. I was fine then. On Saturday afternoon, hey presto, i caught the damn bug. Bloody fucked up buggers.bloody hell. Lucky me. (with absolutely no pun intended whatsoever)

I was pumping my eyes with Optrex since then, but unfortunately, Optrex failed to do what Optrexes supposed to do. Damn Optrex. So i had to visit a doctor to get my medical leave and also the relevant antibiotics to kill the buggers.

Anyway, since i have been pumping myself with antibiotic eyedrops and am high with antibiotics, i really hope to recover immediately and be fully recovered by Friday because i have a cool CHRISTMAS party to attend on this Friday (18.12.2009).

Can smell chestnuts roasting by the open fire already... ^^

will blog more when i have the time. busy with work

gotta run.

Buena Noches

Auds

I miss..

2009-12-08T04:39:00.000-08:00

1)Playing Squash
2)Rock climbing
3)Mountain Hiking
4)The beach and Ocean
5)Scuba Diving
6)Rollerblading and Ice skating
7)Cheese Fondue
8)The Jokes
9)The Laughter
10)My maternal grandmother
11)My indian Brother
12)My bestest buds in London
13)EVERYTHING

It comes and goes, comes and goes

2009-12-08T03:41:00.000-08:00

Just an update:

1. I have applied for leave from work from the 24th of December until the 31st of December 2009. I intend to take a break from the crazy working world and just unwind a little. But, the bad news, it has not been approved yet by my boss. Bummer.

2. My family eye doctor has diagnosed that I'm suffering from very tired and exhausted eye muscles,which is caused by being infront of the PC for too long hours and sleep deprivation, which results in the feeling of very tired, watery and sore eyes. The cure for this is more sleep, spend lesser hours infront of the PC, and eye drops. But out of the 3, i'm only using eye drops. Hence, still sufffering from exhausted eye muscles. ^^

3. I was supposed to participate in an Inter-TESCO(Malaysia) futsal tournament on the 12th of December 2009,I was so looking forward to it, but unfortunately,I was forced to pull out due to an aggravated left knee injury (possible strained meniskus) during a recent jogging session.

My knee felt a little tight, painful and strange whilst i was doing my 1.30 hours jogging session on last Sunday but i continued anyway, thinking it was just tiredness. I was already feeling some strains on my left knee for at least a year now but since the pain was minimum, i brushed it aside. This time around though, the pain is a little bit more obvious to the fact that it hurts when i stand, walk, and when i'm not doing anything.

So, to avoid any serious damage which could lead to a knee surgery, i have made a tough and sad decision to be on a few weeks hiatus from sports until the pain in my knee subsides. If you know me well enough, hiatus from sports is a big NO, NO for Auds.

I'm a sports lover, I love playing sports on an almost daily basis. If i dont play sports i will feel half dead, lifeless, tired,stressed up and lousy. Yes, I'm weird. Sports is like a daily energy booster for me. NO SPORTS= BLOOD COLD MURDER. NO JOGGING+NO BADMINTON+NO SQUASH+NO SWIMMING+NO FUTSAL= RESTLESS, BORED AND MUTILATED AUDS.

Bonne Chance Auds!

I better watch out... I better not cry....

2009-12-06T05:37:00.000-08:00

....I better not pout, i'm telling you why, because santa claus is coming to town. He knows when i'm sleeping, he knows when i'm awake, he knows when i have been bad or good so i'll be good just for presents sake :p

So Mr.Santa, please bring me loads of presents because i have been a really, really good little angel this year.* innocent face* I'll serve a plateful of delicious chocolate chip cookies and a glass of fresh warm milk just for you.teheeheehe

Ok, you guys must be thinking," man, Auds has finally lost it. She has gone all wacky and crazy and has finally crashed under the pressures of the ungodly and inhumane world". Auds has finally gone all bonkers..

ok, chill. So before you guys raise a code red and google for the nearest psychiatrist in town, just relax guys, i'm fine, really, i guess.^^ still there's no cause for alarm.

I'm just really excited and happy and really,really looking forward to the best and my favourite time of the year, a time filled with infinite, indescribable joy, cheer, laughter, happiness, a time for family to get together and bond and treasure each other, a time for christmas delights, christmas turkeys with stuffings and cranberry sauce (my all time favourite and it's one of the many reasons why i look forward to christmas every year. the taste is oh so heavenly..^^), christmas puddings, fruitcakes, eggnogs, loads of food,chocolates and wine and of course the presents. So, yes, I'm talking about the CHRISTMAS.

Christmas has always been magical to me. There's something about Christmas that just lifts up the downest of spirits,brings laughter, puts a smile on everyone's face, inregards of the young, old, poor, rich, the sick.Christmas always has a magical feeling and brings cheer to everyone. It's a time of giving and forgiving. Whereby the worse foes, arch enemies, grudge-stricken people,come together, inspite of all odds, just put everything aside, let everything go, learn to forgive and just share and enjoy the joy and magic of Christmas. Christmas is all about LOVE. Christmas is about healing. There's nothing a warm eggnog and glass of wine cant heal :p

I cant wait for Christmas. it's only a mere 2 weeks away... Here comes santa claus, here comes santa claus... Yes,I still do believe in Santa Claus.

Do you know that each and everytime when somebody says that they dont believe in Santa Claus, a santa claus drops dead in the North Pole? Ahh.... now you know. ^^
It's true. :p.

Guten Tag miene Freunde

Auds

More white water rafting photos

2009-11-25T04:00:00.000-08:00

White water rafting trip update

2009-11-24T04:13:00.000-08:00

The White water rafting trip was a fucking blast! It was damn fun, definitely awesome and freaking rocked! I had a great time and enjoyed myself freaking much.I am so glad that I did it because i realised that I really love this sort of thing and I am really looking forward to my next white water rafting trip in the near future. i would love to go for bigger rapids, and killer curves and bends. that would be so cool. ^^ I also love it because I get to be close to nature. I enjoyed every second of the 2.30 hours non-stop adrenaline pumping, thrilling,fun, hell of a white water rafting ride to the extent that when i fell from the raft, i actually laughed about it because it was just too good to be true. I loved the rapids, i loved the dangerous but cool steep drop into the cool water.

Later that night, i went to luna Bar with agnes and her friends. that was cool too.

I have loads of pics but i'm just too lazy to post them up. Hope that you guys will enjoy these few miserable pics that i'm putting up just as much.

I have loads more to update but that'll have to wait. my laziness is getting the best out of auds once again

toodles, Guten Abend, Bon soir.

Tesco's celebrate success dinner

2009-11-23T21:13:00.000-08:00

i'm too lazy and not really in the mood for blogging these days, and not forgetting the obvious fact that i'm way too bummed out and freaking exhausted from work. The one and only thing that I would love to do from the very moment that i've stepped foot into my bedroom is to just go straight to bed and dream away. Heck can you blame me for having no life? I worked till 9pm every day and have to get my ass back into the office at 8.30am everyday. I can already see wrinkles on my once youthful face and pimples are sprouting every now and then. I'm dead beat.

Anyway, just a short update on what's going on, if anybody is interested anyway. Here goes:

I attended my company's celebrate success dinner at Sime Darby convention centre. It was quite fun minusing the fact that me and about 5 other colleagues were really lost when we were trying to get there and we ended up arriving about 1.30 hours late. That was embarassing. Yes, we made a grand celebrity entrance with all sorts of spotlight shining our way. Imagine this, everybody (your CEO, directors etc) were dining and ta daa... you opened the ballroom door and strutted right in, mind you, ALL EYES ON YOU.... sheeshh.... i should stop getting cheap publicity. Now, i am notorious and known as the girl who arrived at the company dinner 1.30hrs late... sigh. BUMMER.

Anyway, after some food,ice-cream,some cam-whoring, dancing, and socialising,and loads of booze (i was just drinking the whole night), but was never drunk, everything was forgotten.

The funny thing is these days i really drink ALOT but never drunk. I drink like maybe 2 days in a week? that's pretty bad. i know. I can drink maybe 3 bottles of Heineken and i dont feel a thing. strange i know. i think i have successfuly built up my alcohol tolerance level. ^^ Still, i shouldnt drink so much, i dont want a beer belly and a mutilated liver.

Cheerios and Gurnacht. See you later calculator ^^

I wanna, I wanna touch you, do you wanna touch me too?

2009-10-28T22:51:00.000-07:00

OMFG!! I'll be attending THE ALL AMERICAN REJECTS CONCERT again on this Saturday(31.10.2009) yes it's on Halloween day.cool eyy. The venue is Bukit Jalil Staduim. Blast Off time is 6pm. There'll also be performances by One buck short, Pop Shuvit and Disagree... Super duper cool..^^

I'm so excited!! I cant wait!!!

The last time when I went to see American Rejects LIVE was during the MTV WORLD STAGE LIVE IN MALAYSIA back in 15th of August 2009. That was great and i'm dying to catch them LIVE again. Their performance is just awesome.

By the way, I just came back from my white water rafting trip last weekend and it was awesome. I'll post the pics later.

I WANNA BE TOUCHED BY THE AMERICAN REJECTS!! Did i mention that the lead singer ii oh so freaking hot and sexy.... swoon.. ^^

toodles....

Auds was alcohol filled and BUNK FACED

2009-10-26T07:23:00.000-07:00

Hey there. The last weekend had been a great one indeed. I did loads of fun stuff, had a tremendous time, had loads of fun and enjoyed myself. Here's a summary of it:

Thursday (22.10.2009)

Lynette invited me to join her and her bf to Laundry Bar at The Curve because one of my favourite Malaysian bands, "BUNK FACE " was performing LIVE that night.

I have fallen in love with Bunk Face at the very moment that I've first heard their song "SILLY LILLY" being played on the radio. It was love at first sound and there's no turning back after that. I love their songs, their songs are just great and i think they are very talented and are very good for a Malaysian standard.I bought their album for someone because he liked it too and i've listened to their songs like a zillion times.

If you think their album songs are good, trust me when i say their LIVE performance was DA BOMB!! It was freaking awesome! It was damn good. I wasnt expecting such a good live act from them. Their live performance just blew me away. It was freaking fucking good. I was screaming all the way and head banging and just screaming. Their LIVE performance was very American Rejects -like, literally. Yes, it was damn good. High energy packed and plus the most important note: THE LEAD SINGER IS TOTALLY CUTE AND HOT!! They performed about6-8 songs i think. Of course they belted songs like "Silly Lilly", "situasi" and a few other hits. My favourite song from them has to be "SOLDIER", this is fucking good, i'm telling you!!

After the entire performance, and after 2 bottles of Heineken, I wasnt sure anymore whether was it Auds or the alcohol, because i was so energetic, chirpy and cheerful and was just excited and had this big goofy grin on my face and also very brave to the point that i actually approached Reshmonu (he was there) for a photo session and later strutted into the Bunk Face's VIP area and spoke to them and shook their hands and also took photographs with them. they are nice and down to earth chaps. I have to stress this again, their lead singer is fucking sizzling hot!!! What can i say, after that, i walked away from Laundry Bar with a huge tipsy smile plastered on my face and was just happy. I had a great night and enjoyed myself very much that night

Other singers whom performed that night were, ELVIRA ( GOD, She has a freaking awesome, powerful and amazing voice!. I know she'll make it big), MUSTARD (which was just mediocre to the point of lame), ULTIMATE ( a black rapper wanna be, who was just OK and lame).

It was a great night. I had loads of fun. Thank you lynette babe for inviting me ^^

P/s: i'm still waiting for the Reshmonu and bunkface photos from my good friend Lynette. Lyn, if you are reading this, i want my photos. ^^

Will be back with friday, saturday and sunday

Auds loves everybody loves raymond

2009-10-26T06:16:00.000-07:00

I have just finished watching the entire series of "Everybody Loves Raymond" season 1 to season 9. This series is freaking good man. I love it so darn much. It's so freaking funny and hilarious. This is really an awesome medicine after a tired day's of hard work or a remedy for a couple of lonely nights or life's occasional downers. There's nothing that a whole night of laughter couldnt cure. This tickles my funny bone right to the core. I was always laughing my ass off damn hard into the middle of the night, in an empty house and YES ALONE. So, please, quick, go and watch this as well. ^^ Highly recommended. Right now, i'm watching Desperate Housewives. teheheehehe

Stephen Gately- Rest in peace bro

2009-10-16T10:51:00.000-07:00

Rest in peace sweetie. you'll always be in my heart. God bless.

I'm really very deeply saddened by the sudden death of Stephen Gately of Boyzone. I used to listen to their songs alot during my teenage years and liked them very much. i was crazy over them. Life is too short for Stephen. He was my favourite Boyzone member.

This shows that we should never take our life for granted. Do what we want now, today, dont always think that there is always tomorrow because there might never be a tomorrow. Say whatever you want to say now, tell people how you feel about them now, seek for forgiveness now, hug now, kiss now, embrace now before it's too late and you'll never have a tomorrow to do it anymore. Always live your life as if every second is your last. Cherish and appreciate whatever you have now. love yourself, your parents, family and friends. tell them that you love everyday before you'll never get to see them or hug or kiss them anymore. Forgive and forget. never hold grudges. wash away sins and hatred.

I for one, only has one wish that i would like to fulfill before my very last breath. go figure.

Live for today, this very second, this very minute this minute hour, never in the past or in the future. the moment is now.

lazy to blog, here are some million dollar shots of auds in Baju kurung

2009-10-08T04:57:00.000-07:00

my colleagues and i, all dressed up in baju kurung in lieu of Hari Raya to spread some festive cheer. If you are wondering why there are so many clocks in the background, well each clock states different times of different countries. cool eyy... only in TESCO ^^

my colleague and I

When opportunity comes crashing...

2009-10-06T22:26:00.001-07:00

Ever since i have proudly announced to the world that i will be going for a White Water Rafting Trip with my colleagues at Kota Kubu Bharu (off Selangor, i guess), on the 24th of October, i have received an outpour of different responses, amongst which are as below:-

wow, white water rafting, Auds? That's great! That will be whole loads of fun!

wow, so cool.

What? are you crazy? That's very dangerous right? Do you know how many people have died from a tragic white water rafting accident? No, you are not allowed to go!

What? No, you shouldnt be going, you could break a leg or arm or something.

I think it's all bullshit. Anyway, regardless of the negative comments, i'm anyway STILL going. Nothing's gonna happen and i think they are all being too negative and paranoid. I'm not going to miss out on the fun. I mean, i only live once, i'm only blessed with one life to max it out, so yea, i'll make full use of it.

this is one of the many things that i would like to do and would enjoy doing in this lifetime of mine. The other thing that i would like to do is bungee jumping.

I cant wait to go on this white water rafting trip *jumping up and down with excitement*

I can already smell the fun... i'm going, i'm going, i'm going!!! I already know that i'll have an amazing fun time. ^^

DOnt try to stop me, i swear i'll bite. woof! :P

When i have made up my mind to get something or do something, dont waste your time to change it because anyone who knows me, knows that i'm as stubborn as a mule... and usually i'll give it a 102% ^^

I'll do what i want, say what i want, think what i want. If you have a problem with it, tja, my sympathies.

rapids, white waters.... here auds come.

Who wants to join Auds for WHITE WATER RAFTING?

2009-09-28T04:45:00.001-07:00

Hey guys,

Would you guys like to join my colleagues and I for a White Water Rafting Trip?

I am very interested in white water rafting and I have always wanted to go and dreamed of doing it for the longest of time but i have not actually done so because I couldnt get anyone to go with me until now. So, when this kind of golden opportunity comes knocking, i will definitely grab it without any hesitation. Boy i'm so excited already. :P

Here are the details:-

Date: 24th October 2009

Location: Kota Kubu Bharu

Price: MYR 180 inclusive of a lunch buffet

Feel free to ask your friends to join as well. The more the merrier. I for one confirm that i'll be definitely going. I will not miss it for the world.

I bet it'll be loads of fun .

If you guys are interested, please give me your confirmation at the very latest by 4th of October 2009. The payment can be made later on the day of the trip or i'll pay for you guys first.

if you guys are interested. please contact me by:-

Drop a comment here in this post.
Email me at: Audrey.Ng@my.tesco.com or thelinkinparkster@yahoo.co.uk

Toodles

Auds

Auds went to Paradise- Club Med Bali Indonesia

2009-09-17T04:33:00.000-07:00

me and bros, canoe-ing in Club med Bali. It was all loads of fun until the fact that we nearly died because we were being too heroic and paddled way beyond the allowed area. We canoed way passed the buoy and the waves were too strong and too choppy and we were just trapped there in the middle of the ocean, trashed around like some ragged doll, we couldnt paddle out of the waves and our canoe kept doing a bloody 360 degrees turn each time we tried to paddle. Being so fucking helpless wasnt bad enough, Let's see, after that a bloody diving boat crashed into us and nearly tipped over our canoe. We were nearly hysterical but couldnt stop laughing at the same time because it was damn funny and kept yelling stuff like " no paddle left, are you crazy? paddle right? wait! no, Auds, please stop paddling and dont do anything at all!! you are killing us!!" haha. so see, i'm the black sheep. but miraculously after what seemed like an eternity, we paddled back to the save side. muahhahaa. it was fun though.

The basketball game.

The magnificent night view of the bar

The walk to the poolside bar whereby i had endless flow of booze.

my hotel bedroom. cute....

The hotel-simply magnificent

the hotel lobby

The pool and the pool side bar.

Hey guys, i just came back from a great, superb, holy crap, bloody hell freaking good, paradise-like, heavenly, extremely luxurious, grand, posh and superstar-like holiday in CLUB MED BALI, INDONESIA with my family. I had such tremendous, great, fantastic fun time and enjoyed myself over there so freaking much that i really, really didnt want to leave that heaven of a place. i am thinking of getting a job there, because it's just too good to be true. ^^ It's just a great haven to be at and live in, literally.

I'm too lazy to elaborate further so here's the summary of it.

went with family

4 freaking awesome days

great and beautiful place

peaceful, heavenly, tranquil, serene, picturesque

filled with good looking, super rich and posh people

great room

great service

loads of happy, smiley, articulate people

great heated swimming pool with cool couches everywhere with great free flow of alcohol 24 hours poolside bar with good looking, hot, desirable guys swimming in the pool *auds, control yourself*

enjoyed swimming, aqua gym and dipping with the cute guys in the pool

great beach with loads of love huts and cosy couches on the beach

- did loads of kayaking by myself. enjoyed it tremendously

- did windsurfing. Was fun but damn difficult. The bloody mast is so freaking heavy.

- went for a non-existent snorkelling trip. This was what happened. took a boatride, jumped into the sea, after a few minutes, jumped out. because couldnt see a damn thing. what a rip off.

-played beach volleyball with cute Australian guys. swoon. Sprained my right little finger

- didnt do scuba diving though. bummer

- played basketball. tag team with dad and mum against my brothers. we won of course, but i sprained my thumb and it still hurts freaking much.

-laze around by the pool alot, because of the cute guys of course.

- great last night there. great entertainment, great beer, great dancing.

-great FOOD. ate damn alot.

I really didnt want to leave sigh. really. it's like being in paradise overthere. No whims. no worries. A very relaxed and happy auds. People are so nice over there. They wait on you on your hands and foot. sigh.

Nonetheless, i had an awesome time. I really would like to return soon.

I left CLUB MED BALI with a heavy hard, expected bad sunburn, and a heavy sigh, sprained left thumb from basketball and sprained right little finger from volleyball

I miss the cute guys already. I wanna be there forever.

Will be back with more pics

toodles

I was Punk'D

2009-09-08T18:01:00.000-07:00

hey guys, can you remember this post which i had posted quite some time ago?
I was totally freaked out by it, remember?
well, take a read to refresh your memory

"Last night, at around 1 a.m. I was watching tv in the tv room, when all of a sudden the phone in the room rang. Here’s the conversation:
Me: Hello?
Stranger ( an old woman): Asked in mandarin, “what is the time now”
I was a little surprised that she asked me that and…
Me: May I know who do you want to speak to?
Stranger ( an old woman): May I know what time is it (she repeated 3 to 4 times) in a row….
I thought it was my mum on the line because she always intercom me and asked me to go to bed as it was late. But it didn’t sound like my mum at all…. And most of all, I find it extremely weird for somebody to call at 1 o’clock in the morning asking for the time….
And then I freaked out a little, you know, now being the hungry ghost month… and stuff and I just muttered a quick : “ sorry, I think you have gotten the wrong number” and slammed down the phone….
The phone rang again and I refused to answer. After that I unplucked my house phone, and I told myself, if the phone did ring again, I would definitely freak out and screamed……..Fortunately, the phone stopped ringing in the tv room but it rang in the next room.. I had it! I sprinted upstairs to my parents bedroom to relay what had just happened.
My mum said that I shouldnt have stayed up so late to watch tv as that was usually the time when the “ghosts”would come out to play……My reply was, “but I thought you said our house is blessed and safe”??!! hmm……
My mum said that maybe it was my late grandmother but I don’t think so because I would definitely recognize her voice when I hear it.
I was so spooked by it that I am literally frightened. When I went downstairs to get myself a glass of water, I actually brought my rosary along. Talk about being paranoid! Hey blame it on my excessive reading of horror story books and too much horror movies.
I tried to be reasonable and logical by consoling myself that ghosts don’t exist and that the phone call was indeed a wrong number dialed but something about it is very freaky and strange………
What do guys reckon??
Spooky eyy….."

The other day, My brothers and I were just casually talking and exchanging stories about our school and childhoood days. We were just talking about the games we played, our dare-devil rollerblading days, on how mischievious we were back then, all the fights, arguements, rebellion, the fun we had and then came to tricks, practical jokes and pranks. Phone call pranks that we played on teachers, friends and crushes. My youngest bro, AJ played a phone call prank on his high school teacher and he was almost expelled. my parents had to negotiate with the teacher to keep my brother in school. haha.

Anyway, then suddenly my bro said "do you remember the phone prank we played on Aud?" I asked " what prank??!!" and they told me as above. and they burst out laughing uncontrollably, nearly rolled on the floor.

My reaction to that was "bloody hell, wtf? you have to be bloody kidding me right? bloody idiots, holy crap, holy Mf*ckers!! Do you have any idea how freaked out i was?!! That was so not fuvking funny!!" haha. i told them i nearly had a heart attack. The good thing is that, it was a relieve that it was not "the thing"

They have kept this secret from me for 1.3o years.

Then all 3 of them looked at me with a very smug grin and said simultaneously "YOU'RE PUNK'D!!"

bloody hell, it was a prank, a really good one.

My brothers think it's bloody hilarious. I beg to differ.

wait till i get one of them back.. Shh... dont tell them.

i have a wicked prank up my sleeve. ^^ i'm going to get them good.... *evil laughter*

Why?

2009-09-08T16:12:00.000-07:00

Why is the sky blue?

Why do birds sing?

Why things happen in certain ways?

Why fate brought two people together and later tear them apart;
being the world's greatest lovers on one day;
complete strangers the next?

Why do bad people live and the good innocent ones die?

Why do people hate? why do people love?

Optimism? Pessimism?

In life there are bound to be no answers.

Things happen. Truth is always beholded. Intentions cruel or kind are never known.

Life is a funny thing.

No matter how shitty it can be, there is always this tiny light that shines through the darkest clouds, portraying a tiny ray of hope and goodness, smeared and tainted with occasional raindrops and threats of impending storm.

Shit happens. You can either choose to drown or grit your teeth real hard and swim right through it despite the strong currents, despite all odds, muscle cramps, exhaustion, broken spirit and will. Once you have reached the shore, you should give yourself a pat on your back, should be proud, you should pop a champagne and celebrate, because after going through all that, you need not worry no more because you know that you can conquer anything and everything that is being thrown in your direction.You will get to sow the fruits of your labour.

Su Lyn

2009-09-03T05:25:00.000-07:00

I went to watch the movie "UP" with my bestest budz Su lyn on Sunday evening. It's a damn good cartoon, really. I like that movie very much. It's damn funny, i was laughing my ass off, like really loudly. It has a nice story to it too. It's nice to grow old with the one you love and whom also love you just the same.

It was the last dinner, last movie together with sulyn and also THE last time that i'll get to hang out with budz or see her because she'll be flying off to the UK next week and i wont be seeing her for an entire year. Gosh, i'm going to miss her so freaking much. She has been my bestfriend for 23 years now (I'm not that old, i'm only turning 26 in November, LOL^^)

She is the only one that understands me, the only one that has been there for me throughout my ups and downs, through rain and shine, through my rebellious hormone raging days. She has been there for me throughout my life. we went to the same schools from primary right up to high school. She has been there for me to comfort me when i'm down, cheer me up and put a smile on my face, made me laugh, listen to my woes, just talked about life and stuff, to offer words of wisdom and advise and encouragement, to offer praise, to wipe away my tears, to lend a shoulder to cry on, to listen to my whinnings and had to deal with my stubborness, to share my achievements, my joy.

She has been there for me through thick and thin. She was also my partner in crime during our hormone raging days and we did some naughty stuff, not bad or crime like, just naughty. haha. yea, i was really, really naughty back then. It drove my parents up the wall, literally. We spoke hours on the phone about boys, life, sex, career. She was the one whom "forced" me to speak to the boy i had a crush with. (EY) We hung out and did stuff together. She was the one whom introduced me to the "naughty websites" haha. Oops, sorry su lyn. ^^

We did everything and went everywhere together. We were never apart, like siamese twins. When there's auds, there's sulyn and vice versa. Friends often assumed that we were gay, just to set the record straight, we are both ultimately straight young ladies. We drifted apart when we went to university. But we tried to make it up by talking loads on the phone and hang out when the both of us were free. She too scolded me like an elder sister to get my life straight sometimes or to tell me off when i'm rude or acted like a jerk.
She was the one who played a pivotal role to help me to get back up on my feet during my recent downfall. There has always been this special bond between us, and forever will be.

I remember the fond memories when we tried to be blood sisters, remember budz? of course i remember those days when we had our disagreements but we talked and made up.

i always joked that if she was a guy, we would have been the perfect couple. maybe we would be or should be.^^

I know that i can be this bloody stubborn asshole and selfish and oblivious sometimes. I can be a real pain in the ass and su lyn knows it too well. Su lyn, if you are reading this, i just want to say, i'm truly sorry that you have to deal with it. i'm trying to be better everyday and i think you can spot the difference in me, right? haha. i have became a deep thinker after high school but still childish. haha

Gosh, i dont know what i'll do without her.

I wish her nothing but the utmost best for her stay in the UK. Hope she has a great learning experience and have loads of fun there. Hope that she finds a great guy there as well. She deserves it.

Budz, see you in London in the year 2010, eyy. This is our pact. Let's not break it. I'm looking forward to it very much. Let's make it happen.

Take care my buddy, call me when you are there, keep in touch, take care of yourself over there alright. If anybody mistreats or ever so to lay a tiny finger on you over there, tell me, i'll fly over there and kick their ass so hard that they'll even forget they have an ass.

In a nutshell, Su lyn: my sister, my best friend, my guardian angel.

toodles

i'm missing her already

Good Ole' Malacca.. o heavenly

2009-09-01T22:24:00.000-07:00

I went back to good ole' Malacca last weekend and it was nothing short of superbly nice. I have not gone back for 3 weeks and i just miss it very much. I enjoyed spending time with my family and friends and of course had loads of fun playing with my furry four legged best friends. It was nice being able to be back in the comforts of my cosy room which i also called my sanctuary and haven ^^I just miss snuggling on my bed with a good book or two or just sleep. ahhh.. that was lovely. Not forgetting i ate ALOT, no joke. When i am in KL i am on diet, i limit myself to a meal a day, but when im in Malacca, it's always an eating frenzy. I enjoyed it of course, but i feel sorry for my stomach. sigh. haha. Now, i'm back in the endless ratrace city.

My indian Brother, Aaron is back!! I'm so glad that he's back. hope to spend some time with him before he flies back to India again. ^^

toodles

BITTER SWEET SYMPHONY

2009-08-24T03:20:00.000-07:00

Bloody hell!!!O my freaking God!! Holy crap!! These are the only words that i'll use to describe the fantastic, bloody cool and wicked and utterly awesome, freaking fucking superb concert that i have attended last week. I'm still on cloud 9 and still high from the recent concert which i had attended on the 15.08.2009 at Sunway Lagoon Surfbeach, it's none other than THE MTV WORLDSTAGE LIVE IN MALAYSIA CONCERT 2009.

This is one of the BEST concerts that i have attended thus far. Of course LINKIN PARK and GOOD CHARLOTTE"S concert were the best!! Nothing can be compared to these 2 concerts.

Anyway, i had such a tremendous, freaking awesome and unbelievably great fun time there. I enjoyed myself so freaking much.!! The little bit of raindrops before the start of the concert didnt dampen my spirits at all. I was just screaming, singing, and jumping like there was no tomorrow for the entire 6 hours long concert. That's right folks, the freaking awesome concert was 6 hours long. That was fucking fantastic man. i'm telling ya. I am totally glad that i had attended the concert.

The bands that performed that night were ESTRANGED, BOYS LIKE GIRLS, RAY GUN, PIXIE LOTT, HOOBASTANK, THE AMERICAN REJECTS AND KASABIAN
The bands' performances were freaking awesome. My all time favourite performance were by HOOBASTANK AND THE AMERICAN REJECTS. THEY ROCK!! I LOVE THEM.

I had so much fun, I just wished that the concert didnt have to come to an end. It's a waste really. I was just so sad that the concert ended. I almost didnt want to leave. sigh. the funny thing was after that much jumping and screaming at the highest energy at all times without resting, i wasnt even tired at all. I think i could have gone on for another 6 hours more or so. i'm serious. yes, i am hyper ever since i was a child. why on earth do you think my parents enrolled me into so many sports activities when i was a kid? All that activities were to put my balls of high energy to good use. haha

The concert was really fun. I have never felt and been so esctatic, so high, so freaking happy, so energetic, and had such great unbelievable good time for a long, long time. After all the emotional turmoil that i have been through since beginning this year, i am actually feeling great about myself now. I AM LITERALLY HAPPY. I am actually having this new zest for life now.

Right now, the next concert that i'll definitely be attending will be the Arthur's Day Concert by Black Eyed Peas which will be on the 25th of September 2009 at Sunway Lagoon Surfbeach as well. I will definitely be going. Regardless whether i'll be going alone or with friends. Either ways. i'll be going, indefinitely

I anyway walk alone these days. it's cool. I dont mind. if people couldnt give a damn about me, i too couldnt be bothered to give a damn about them. Life is too short too care. I dont give a fuck.

i'll just do what i want. I live and enjoy my own life. I'm looking forward to the Black Eyed Peas concert very much. wanna join?

toodles

AUDS IS GOING TO MTV WORLDSTAGE LIVE IN MALAYSIA 2009!!!!

2009-08-11T02:53:00.000-07:00

Guess what?? I have received the golden tickets to attend the MTV WORLDSTAGE LIVE IN MALAYSIA 2009!!!! which will be on this Saturday (15.08.2009) at Sunway Lagoon, "jumping up and down with unexplainable joy" I have 4 passes to attend this concert and i'll be asking a few friends to come along. Gosh, i'm so freaking happy right now. I'm on super cloud 9!! Thank Goodness Gracious.:). I'm so excited and cannot wait to attend this concert! I'm ecstatic!

This concert will mean alot to me as i have been concertless for 2 years now and i'm so dying of boredom. I need something to zest up my life. My last concert was the My Chemical Romance concert about 2 years ago and that was freaking good.

I miss the positive energy that revolves around it. I miss the vibe and hype. I miss the jumping and screaming at the top of my lungs until my lungs collapse. I miss the fun and i miss being sandwiched, I miss the sweaty, sticky, and gross feeling of the sticky skin of strangers, I miss being humped from the back without my consent, and secretly liked the feeling of being humped. ^^

Concerts that I have attended thus far:-

1. LINKIN PARK LIVE IN SINGAPORE

2. HITZ BIRTHDAY BASH

3. MTV: GOOD CHARLOTTE LIVE IN MALAYSIA

4. MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE LIVE IN MALAYSIA

The next few concerts that I would really like to attend would be:-

LINKIN PARK (YES, AGAIN ^^)
METALICCA
GREEN DAY
SIMPLE PLAN
BLINK 182
BON JOVI
NICKELBACK
PAPA ROACH

I had wanted to go and watch the Tennis Malaysian Open ATP Tournament as well, but my favourite players wont be there, so i wont waste my money on the "not so good players".

That's all for now.

Toodles

OK, JUST CALL ME A HYPOCRITE

2009-08-07T20:36:00.000-07:00

Music wise, right now, i Love the KOOKS. Thanks to a fellow Swiss friend by the name of Siggy whom had introduced this band to me 2 years ago. I like their songs very much.

Do you know what's funny, for someone like me who avoids Techno, Trance, House or Electro pop like avoiding a disease, I'm actually beginning to love the stuff created by David Guetta. I like his songs. I'm a hypocrite, I know. Because everyone knows i hATE TECHNO. But, i like the musical genious of David Guetta, just as much as I love the musical genious of LINKIN PARK, GREEN DAY AND METALICCA, BEETHOVEN, CHOPIN, MOZART, TCHAIKOVSKY, AND EVERYTHNG BY ANDREW LLOYD WEBBER.

TOLD YOU GUYS I'M W.E.I.R.D.

Little Auds bids adieu

Life is not fair, but it still rocks!!

2009-08-03T05:26:00.000-07:00

Things that I live by everyday:-

I love my life
I love my family and friends
Life is superbly good
be happy
optimism and positivity rocks
pessimism and negativity are hurtful
give everyone the benefit of my doubt
i only live once. Live it to the max, live it right, do the things i want to do, make it rock.
i dont give a fuck what people might think or say about me
i dont give a shit if people hate me or think lesser of me.
Noone can judge me. No one but GOD.
be the best person that i can be everyday.
give 101% in everything that i do.
Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
hate and grudge are 2 deadliest sins.
forgive and forget.
My job won't take care of me when i'm sick. My friends and parents will. I should keep them close to me.
open my eyes. see the colours of life
I don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
I love chocolate and cheese. i will not go on a diet for these 2 things
I LOVE exercise
I love sleeping.
Music is my everything.
Read everyday. if i were to stop, i stop living.
I should really make peace with my past so it won't screw up the present. This is something that i would try in the near future.
I have to let things go and make the best of it.
just go with the flow.
I shouldnt compare my life with others. Mine is great.
Everything can change in the blink of an eye
i should Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
Whatever doesn't kill me, really does makes me stronger.
When it comes to going after what i love in life, i will not take no for an answer.
every blink of an eye, every breath that i take, every smile i muster, every heartbeat, every day is a gift. live it well.
I am in charge of my own happiness. fuck me if i were to disagree.
Forgive everyone and everything.
What other people think of me is none of my business.
Time heals almost everything. Give it time.
However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
dont take things or myself too seriously. enjoy and relax. take in one thing at a time. stop and smell the coffee.
i should believe in miracles
God loves me for me. Not what i did or didnt do. What i have done or will do.
make the most of my life now.
the best in life is yet to come. I'm waiting with open arms
No matter how i feel, i should always drag myself out of bed, get up, dress up and show up and wear a smile.
do not do unto others what you dont want others do unto you.
when one door closes, the other opens.
opportunity in life only comes knocking once. Grab whole of it immediately without hesitation.
Love with all my heart.
give and take.
love my enemies.
if someone slaps me on one cheek, i'll offer them the other.
it doesnt matter if i walk alone, i walk with my head held high.
Keep my dignity. it's all that i have.

Eve without the Adam

2009-08-03T04:45:00.000-07:00

I was born a Roman Catholic. At least it says so in my birth certificate. I was not baptised as my dad wants me to have a freedom to choose my own religion. I'm grateful for that. I have never been a good Catholic, i shamely have to admit. I read the bible, went to church often before i hit my teens, after that I only joined my family for church like 4 times in a year. But, i'm a true believer. i believe and have faith in HIM. I really do.

I am also a semi Buddhist. My mum is a buddhist. I go to church and temple. I pray as well. i have no problems with that. More often than not, i received an eye-popping, jaw-dropping response from my friends when i told them that i'm both Catholic and Buddhist and I believe in both, but i swing more towards Catholism. The most common question i received was " erm, when you were to pass away one day, what will happen to you? Will your upper half be in heaven and the lower half be reincarnated?" boink. that was a pretty good question. I pondered about it and my answer was and still is " well, i will be given a choice i presume and my choice will indefinitely be to be up in Heaven, the promised land, full of lovely clouds, happiness and abundant resources"

Anyway, God made Adam an Eve and Eve an Adam. But somehow, i believe that God made only me and have forgotten about my Adam. Maybe i am destined for greatness in this life without Adam and I am seriously totally cool with that. I will just go along with HIS plans and make the best out of my life. I mean, i have nothing to complain about, life has been all the while superbly great for me ever since i was born. of course, there were glitches and hiccups every now and then, i mean, this is life. i was born with a silver spoon, have a great and extremely luxurious and comfortable life, have a loving family, a couple of great friends. I live a blessed life and i wont trade it for anything in the world.

It doesnt matter if i walk alone, life rocks! I'm enjoying it.

I love Squash

2009-08-02T21:52:00.000-07:00

I really, really love Squash. I love and enjoy playing it very much. I started playing squash ever since i was like 6 years of age. I was trained by a Pakistani coach. That was fun. I used to play squash very often , at least twice or 3 times in a week. I played it with my dad, bros and my swiss friends.But now, sadly all my squash partners have already returned back to Switzerland (ben and Thomas), except Steve, he's still here, but he anyway is always too busy for me and he's too anyway going back to Switz, soon, in like 2 weeks. Right steve? ^^ I have played like only maybe 5 times with this Steve. So, with everybody gone, this means i'll play lesser squash now. Bummer. I do still play with my dad and bros now at every chance that i've got, but i'll only get to play like maybe twice a month! due to the fact that i'm stuck in KL now.That's pathetic and a huge contrast compared to when i was still working in Malacca. It's just not enough. Squash with Siggy was always the best and i had the most fun, of course the games themselves were great, but i always had the joy of unintentionally hitting him with the squash racquet or squash balls. When i mention "hit" it was really hard. You could actually see squash ball marks on his neck, forehead etc etc. I usually would just roll on the floor and burst into fits of laughter, because it was just too darn funny. Those were the good old days and i really, really miss it.

Right now, i have not played squash for an entire month and i didnt realise how much i really, really miss playing it until i went to watch the CIMB Malaysian Open Squash Competition. Bummer. When i watched them play, i just have this eagerness and restlessness and desperation and the fire burning in me and passion to play as well. I yearn for squash so badly. I just want to play squash real soon again. I miss it too much. That aside, i have not played badminton and tennis for nearly a month too. sigh. This is KL life for you.

Aside to that, i have nobody to play squash or badminton here with me in KL. I was literally dying of super boredom without exercise. Exercise has always been my life. Without it, i would just drop dead, literally. Which was why i have joined the gym to stay fit. I have enforced a "gym everyday" rule for myself, whereby i must at least swim or jog once a day. The funny thing is, i am actually following this very diligently. I even caught myself by surprise. Nevertheless, i am enjoying every gym session and am very glad that i own a gym membership.

Gym is my life saviour. Gym is something that i look forward to everyday with high energy. It gives me a renewed hope and refreshing start to my life. I love the gym. Gym makes little Auds happy. It gives little Auds a whole load of new balls of energy in her.

toodles. gotta go

A very cool and awesome squash filled week

2009-08-01T07:48:00.000-07:00

Nicole in action

I attended the amazing, wicked, fantastic, and bloody cool CIMB Malaysian Open Finals Squash Tournament 2009 today (01.08.2009) at the Curve. It was a blast and bloody amazing. I enjoyed the whole finals so bloody much. I had an amazing time there. Both Men's finals and Women's finals were damn bloody good. The players played well and both final matches were very interesting, exciting, adrenaline pumping freaking good. I also went to watch both quarter finals and semifinals as well. But i only watched it from the sidelines without tickets. haha^^.

toodles. got to go. will be back with more stuff

My Mundane Weekend

2009-07-27T04:59:00.000-07:00

Oh no. it’s Monday again. Time surely flew off the clocks during the weekend. I didn’t do much this weekend. Nothing spectacular, nothing exciting or interesting , nothing out of the ordinary, nothing bizarre or weird happened during my weekend. So, this weekend was pretty mundane.

Let me see,

On Friday:-

After work, I walked to the curve and spent about 2 hours in the MPH Bookstore just browsing through magazines and books. I had wanted to get myself a new book, but the choices were just too vast and I seemed to fall in love every single book there that I had laid my hands upon, so it wasn’t a surprise that being a fickle minded person that I am, I couldn’t decide on which book I like best as there were a few books which seemed really interesting. So I think I will be heading back to the bookstore again sometime soon, maybe today and actually buy a book or two.

I know that I am just weird. Ever since I could read, around 1 or 2yrs old I guess, I just have this unfathomable and undescribable love and fascination for books. I LOVE reading. Reading is my life, my heart and my soul. It completes me. I cannot imagine living a day in my life without reading. Take my precious books away from me and I swear I’ll throw a huge ass tantrum, I protect my books like a lioness protect it’s cubs. I prefer books over Barbie dolls or soft toys. As a matter of fact, I more often than not dismembered and beheaded my Barbie dolls to the point that it drove my mum crazy and she refused to buy me any more dolls. ^^ There was once my mum bought me a Pocahontas doll with lovely long hair and I cut it SHORT. That really pissed my mum off. Tee hee hee . I think my mum was trying to incorporate some girlishness in me but failed miserably.

I am totally not girlish at all. I am not comfortable wearing dresses, because I find them too airy and also I have to sit in a certain manner. . But of course, I will wear dresses occasionally when I really have to. I despise cooking, sewing, gardening, any handicraft, or girlish activities. I only LOVE sports. I play all racquet games and love them to bits, I love swimming, rollerblading, rock climbing, jungle trekking, scuba diving, all sorts. I even did some extreme rollerblading and skateboarding when I was in my teens. I joined my brothers. Hence, which explains all my scars all over my body. It’s really funny, because after I had fallen down for what seemed to be a zillion times, I’ve not so much so fractured a bone in my body. ^^. I dont really fancy having long hair because it's really troublesome when i play loads of sports. I'm just too lazy to tie up my hair each and every time that i play, which explains more often than not my short hairdo. Just for the record I am nonetheless 100% straight. I love only guys. Ask anyone and everyone. Sorry girls. :P

Btw, I also had training in Taekwando, but unfortunately, I only hold a brown-black belt. I dare not take the test for black belt because I was afraid to be beaten up, more than anything else. I was pretty good in the patterns and wood breaking stuff. Thanks to a very bad experience when I took part in a Malacca state Taekwando tournament. A bigger-sized, taller, mean looking girl beat me up quite badly, she showed no mercy at all. She seemed to be holding a terrible grudge and had this fury in her. As the result of that, I had bad swollen shins and knees and arms and body. I was completely banged up. I cried. That was embarrassing. Bloody hell. It was only a tournament and she bullied an innocent looking pint sized girl like me. She should join Thai kick-boxing.. I was traumatized after that. But, I’m still someone that you shouldn’t mess around with. I made other girls cried before too. Nah just kidding.

Thus, my mum actually, seriously announced to the whole wide world that she has four sons. Boink. Everyone thought so too, because I had really short boyish haircut. When my dad mentioned something like “my daughter”, people will ponder, “erm, since when he has a daughter??”. I’m not kidding! hehe

My favourite hang out spot as a child was not Toys’R’Us, it’s the bookstore. I must buy at least a book on every visit. Birthdays and Christmas presents came in forms of books. I would just have this grin on my face when I open my presents. Told ya I’m weird. I would just spend hours cuddling on my bed or on couches pouring over books all through day and night. Holidays are spent alone in my room, just reading. I read all the time. I must read when I’m eating breakfast, lunch or dinner. I read cereal boxes, newspapers, anything. I must read or else, I’ll feel restless. I read in the car. where ever. I read in the bathroom. I must have a book with me at all times, or else I’ll behave like a kid that has lost his or hers pacifier. No joke. That made me extremely happy and contented. I’ll be contented with a good book. Tja, I’m easily pleased. This went on until my university days until my bro, Aaron made a very crude remark “ gosh sis, you are like a bloody hermit, go out and have some fun and get a life!” well, I took his advise seriously and I bet he regrets saying that now. because right now, he can hardly catch me being at home. In the turn of events he now said “ please don’t treat your house like a hotel” tja. Bloody hypocrite. haha It’s too late bro. hehe. :P

Sadly ever since I stepped foot into the working world, I don’t have much time to read anymore. It’s a whole load of lame excuse, I know. But right now, I plan to start reading again. It’ll make me very happy again. This is all that I really need now.

See, just the mention of reading, and I have loads to say. How otherwise do you think my ingenious and creative ideas and thoughts came from? haha.

Reading is my ultimate passion: I wont trade it for the world.

toodles. that's all for now.

will be back with more stuff.

My Saturday

2009-07-27T04:55:00.000-07:00

Saturday.

I woke up at 1pm. Cleaned my house for abit and drove over to One world hotel and hit the gym. I swam for 1.30 hours and jogged for 1 hr. I felt relaxed, happy, and energized after that. I’m weird, so you can close your wide-opened mouths now. I was not tired at all. I’m serious. Haha. In fact, I felt fresh, like I have this huge balls of energy in me, that couldn’t wait to be unleashed. I always feel alive after an exercise. On the contrary. I’ll feel half dead without exercise. After that I headed to Curve for Mc Donald’s ice-cream. I had a sudden craving for it. As soon as I reached home, I watched the season 5 of 24 (man it’s damn good and addictive) till 6am in the morning.^^ I woke up at 4.30pm on Sunday. Cool huh.

My other passion, is sleeping. Haha. I can REALLY, REALLY sleep. Ask anyone. When I sleep, I literally go into a deep slumber. No hailstorms, thunderstorms, earthquakes, or anything can wake me up. To the extent that people mistakenly assumed that I have passed out in my sleep or something. Haha.

That’s all for now. toodles.

Are you sure you wanna mess with the Auds now?

2009-07-20T22:08:00.000-07:00

I have official S.W.A.T training and i kick arse! Be very afraid...... be very afraid....... Nah. i'm just kidding. This is my Paintball kick arse team. It doesnt matter that we lost that day, we still kick arse and most important of all, we had loads of fun. :p i was quite badly bruised though. I bled and limped out of the battle field. (ok i might be exaggerating), but the pain was bearable. Can you spot me?

this is me, practising my shots at the shooting range. I might be petite, but when i unleash my fury, all hell breaks loose. nah, i'm just playing. i cant even hurt a fly. ^^but dont mess with me. i've sharp razor teeth like the dinasours.

Hmm, i know i shouldnt be saying this at all but i am seriously getting very sick of my favourite past time which is M***E*****o*. I need the real thing. sigh.

toodles

i'm the blurest person alive

2009-07-20T04:31:00.000-07:00

I have watched the latest installment of Harry Potter: Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. I have always been a great fan of Harry Potter books. I love every single one of it. But, i have to say that I was really disappointed with the movie. I went in with high hopes, but came out with slanted shoulders and dragged my feet all the way to my car. To cheer myself up alittle, i told everyone that there are some parts of the movie which was actually pretty good. I'm lying to myself right? right? ^^

Anyway when it comes to blurnest, i'll definitely win hands down. I'm too lazy to elaborate further but just summary of the recent happenings in my life.

I tried to break in, into somebody's car because i swear i assumed that was my car. The warning signs that something was not right was there right from the start. My car's remote control seemed to be not working at that time of the unfortunate event. I thought the battery has failed on me. After prying open the control and played with it and knocked it around for abit, the control was still not working. Then, i tried unlocking my car manually, but the key wouldnt turn. I was cursing and swearing under my breath, and nearly tried to break open the window and hot wire the car. I'm serious!Fortunately, nobody caught me in the act as by some miracle, i managed to discover in just a nick of time that, apparently that car wasnt mine. I was laughing myself silly after that.

2 . I drove to a Burger King drivethrough, ordered, paid and drove to a Dunkin Donuts Counter to collect my burger. After a few minutes of argument with the guy there (thinking that he was trying to rip me off), he smugly pointed at the Dunkin Donuts signage at the window, with this unforgettable huge ass smirk and grin on his face.. OOps. SO, i embarassingly drove back to the burger king counter and collected my burger. The burger king guy was laughing his ass off so badly. I wish i was an ostrich then, so that i could have buried my head in shame. ^^

3. I was attending my teambuilding training, somehow, i entered the wrong room after break, sat down, listened to the lecture for a good 1o mins,only to realise that i was in the wrong class because of the discrepancy of the notes i was holding and the lecture. Then when i looked around, i realised that my colleagues have changed faces. and quietly sneaked out of the wrong room. OOps. boink..

Anyway, the one thing that i really look forward to is my planned England and Switzerland trip in October 2010 with my budz. I plan to be there for 3 weeks. I know it's still frigging long more but it's just something that i really look forward to.

Plus, i'll be joining a gym membership end of this month. I plan to go and swim from 7am till 8am every morning there and then only i'll head to work. Stop laughing, i'll do it. You'll have the last laugh when i have tonned abs : P

gotta run.

an awesome time at Port Dickson.

2009-07-12T22:15:00.000-07:00

the serenity and tranquility of the view just takes my breath away. i love the beach. who says port dickson is lousy. huh huh.... i think it's a beautiful place.

OK, this is my karaoke gang. We belted numbers like Mamma Mia by Abba, Oh carol, We will rock you and mungkin nanti by peterpan. I know i was singing and grinning widely the whole time. thanks to the fact that i had gulped down 4 mugs of Heineken. Being forced by colleagues to bottoms up one whole mug of it and half a glass of wine. I was feeling a little bit dizzy after that. After that we were just dancing like there was no tomorrow. I know some of my colleagues headed to somebody's room for drinking session part 2 but i called it a day because i know i have reached my limit. I didnt want to get drunk as i hate that feeling.

i love this photo ALOT. it's damn funny. look ma, i'm floating at zero gravity. ^^

the look of champions after finishing the raft race at 3rd place. there were 6 teams btw :P

can you spot me on my raft? We have just reached the finish line and we were dead beat. we rowed like 3 km...... just kidding. most probably about 1km ^^

before rowing.. energetic, enthusiastic and all

my team building a raft from scratch. bamboo sticks, ropes, you name it. we built it. man we are great!

the whole jing bang... yea babe. this is the fresh and grocery team. well, only part of it. most of them couldnt make it for unknown and unspecified reasons. Being pregnant and the fear of a lonely husband could be the many silly reasons. well they snooze they lose. ^^ man, i'm evil.

just chilling after all that zero gravity experience

I ROCK!!! i love this man.

Well, i had one of the best weekends ever in my life last week. I went to Port Dickson for my company's teambuilding on last friday and saturday. Loads of drinking, dancing and karaoke-ing. I had a great time. Enjoyed rafting, paintballing and stuff.

so, too lazy to elaborate further. here are some photos. will post more in my facebook if time permits. i'm a busy, busy girl. not so much with my personal life but with work. I'm waiting for more photos from my colleagues. So team, if you are reading this, you should know what do. "hint, hint"^^

Anyway, i had such an awesome time, everything seemed to be normal again....when i was there. at least it only lasted till i reach my home.

toodles. gotta go.

toodles. enjoy the pics.

I AM DEAD

2009-07-07T22:07:00.000-07:00

I AM DEAD

*PERIOD*

when Tesco revolves around Auds- auds works 24 hours

2009-06-25T08:12:00.000-07:00

Hey, it's 11.15pm right now on a cosy Thursday evening. i'm still working my butt off in my office. In a whilst time, i'll be heading down to the store and start my night shift which will drag on till probably 7am in the morning. My department, chill and frozen is currently doing a major range change for the frozen products which involves my products and albeit it's not my job to work in the store but it's my products which means indirectly it's my job. gedddit?

So, i'm working 24 hours. bummer. This is already my 2nd time working 24 hours non stop. I'm feeling a little bit tired eventhough my night shift has not even begun.

Well, this is a day in the life of a Tesco buyer. You have to work your butt off, rain or shine, sun or moon, day or night. We have been brainwashed to be dedicated, loyal and have an ultimate passion for TESCO. It's against all my lazy genes but the brainwashing is pretty much effective.

i can foresee that Auds will be working more 24 hours shifts in the near and not so distant future.

God knows when i might actually be completely burned out.

oh well, little auds has to go now and work.

sometimes in life, not everything is about the money, not everything is about the career, not about climbing up the corporate ladder and be Mr. Big ass shot in the corporate world. not about Being driven around by a chaffeur in a huge ass limousine, not about living in mansions. not about flying around first class and not about flying in private jets. not about having an explosive amount of money.

Sometimes, all one need in life is to be loved. money, career, mansions, fat pay cheques aside. Dont kid yourselves, love is the most powerful omen of all.

Since i've already screwed up my love life to be in love and loyal to TESCO, i might as well, work my ass off, and be some big ass somebody in this corporate world.

But then again, all the respect, money and supersized ego and no love, what is there to live for? Nought.

A public apology from AUDS

2009-06-16T22:43:00.000-07:00

It has been 4 months now. I am an android, capable to perform daily routines as has been programmed into me, nonetheless void and pretty much nothing else. I would like to sincerely apologise for my oblivion, own selfishness, stupidity, ignorance, for posting the wrongful previous posts. It was sensitive and personal and private. It should be kept private. I was too emotionally driven, too naive. I was overwhelmed with sadness, disappointment, and a little bit of anger. I didnt realise back then, it would be offensive and hurtful. i didnt mean to cause any trouble. I didnt do it intentionally to hurt someone or to rub it into his face. i didnt mean to make anybody sad, disappointed and angry. I am sorry. I should have known better, and reacted to it more maturely. But then again, this blog, is the only outlet for me to vent my feelings and to pour my heart and soul into it. Other than this, my close friends are my punching bags. Thank you very much for taking in my punches, my swears, tears and complaints. Thank you very much again for being tolerant with me as i know i can be a real pain in the ass. A few friends were close to strangling me and hang me upside down to slap me around to wake me up. Eventhough as much as they have tried and most of them have given up on me, except budz, sorry to say that everything that they tried, are to no avail, till today. I guess i wont be pouring much stuff here anymore.

So, it would be my utmost pleasure to inform everyone that i will be removing the few offensive posts to prevent and stop offending and hurting anyone.

Things just always doesnt turn out the way and work the way that we wanted them to be. wouldn't this world be an ideal place to live in and wouldnt life be oh so blissful, if we get what we want. But then again, I always believe that the higher power above always has HIS own masterplan for each and everyone of us. When a door closes, the other opens.

It takes two to tango and also two to un-tango. So, it's never a one sided thing. Should stop to take the blame and be too hard on myself.

A wise man once said " Those who lives only in the past and present, will never see the future"

I have become a mega HUGE fan of German Rock band, RAMMSTEIN!!. God they are awsome!!

Went to Tioman, went scuba diving, played beach soccer, was fun, got sunburned. Too lazy to elaborate further.

Oh well, eventhough things doesnt work out now, who knows what the future brings. I have always trusted HIS plans. No reason to doubt it now. It's best to just cool off now.

Adios mi Amigos

i might be back, might not as this might be my last post to prevent anymore trouble.

I want to disappear

2009-04-09T04:28:00.000-07:00

I want to disappear forever in the lands of never never land.
I want to disappear forever where no one can ever find me
I want to disappear to a place where there's no worries, no let downs, no disappointments, no sadness, no heartbreaks, no anger, no lost hopes, no nothing, no lost of loved ones.
I want to disappear forever to a land where the birds sing, the sun shine, flowers bloom, a place where resources are a plenty,
I want to disappear to a land where everybody is happy, cheerful, no tears, no frowns, no sadness.
I want to disappear to a land of true love and true friendship.

There is only one known place which promises things like that: Happy Valley.

The next closest thing: Scuba diving. That's the best feeling in the world. Worries are forgotten. There is where i wanna go. That is what i wanna do. The feeling of breathing compressed air, the serenity and tranquility of the underworld never failed to amaze me. it's just a completely different world. Beautiful, untouched by the oblivious humans, unharmed, unpolluted. It's magical. There is a certain calmness about it. There's unprofound freedom. it's a different kind of heroin,morphine, marijuana.
I miss the ocean, i miss the beach, i miss the gentle breeze. i miss the sun. I am natural water sapien. I love the water. I love swimming ever since i was a baby. which was why my parents enrolled me in a swimming school ever since i was 5. I love it. Take me away from the sun and sea or the pool is like taking away orgasms and euphoria from every sex. ^^ The beach is my second home.

I wanted to start the year with a bang, but banged up is what i have become. I'm just plaqued with disasters.

i need to go away and find a piece of mind. It's all tangled up in a big mess.

I just.. ( a rare poem by Auds)

2009-03-26T04:20:00.000-07:00

I just want someone whom...

Puts the shine and sparkle back into my eyes,
Bring a smile back to my face,
Make me smile,
Make me laugh,
Cheer me up when I’m down,
Puts a silver lining behind dark clouds;
Be the ray of sunshine through cloudy days;
Be the rainbow in my life’s canvas;
Wipe my tears,
Provide a shoulder to lean on;
I can trust; and trusts me just the same;
Respects me;
Share my joy,
Share my pain,
Share my accomplishments,
Share my dreams;
Care for me;
Advise me;
Console me;
Comfort me;
Understand me;
Pick me up when I fall;
And tell me that it’s ok;
Encourage me to try again;
Give me kisses and hugs
Whereby I can hold him real tight and fall asleep in his arms;
Feel his warm body against mine;
Feel his warm and steady breath;
Dream of him every night;
and to wake up the same way every morning;
to be awaken up by tender kisses;
to know that I am loved;
to be the music in my life;
rock my world;
share my up and downs;
do loads of things that we love together;
have fun together;
go clubbing and drinking together;
have adventures together;
travel the world together;
be there for me when I need him;
be there for me through thick and thin;
through rain or shine;
through sun or snow;
I can share my future with;
Have his kids;
Be truthful and forever loyal to him;
Who still loves me when I’m old and wrinkly;
whom loves me for me;
Through sunny days;
Through rainstorms;
Till death do us part.
Don’t need much money;
Don’t need any fancy rides;
Don’t need mansions;
Just a guy who loves me;
And to show me that I am loved;
Every single day;
Till death do us part.

Penned by Audrey Ng

hmm, can I turn this into a song? I have written it, so now all I have to do is compose a melody for it. And after some fine tuning, and a little adjustments here and there, hey presto, I have a song. I might earn some quick bucks from it too. I am really thankful that I have some professional piano training for 12 years of my life. ^^. I know that I will put it into good use someday. ^^

This is all too fairytale aint it. I thought I had it. I guess I will never ever get a guy like this again in this lifetime of mine. I don’t mean to be pessimistic, but let’s just say until I eventually find a guy who proves to me he is all that, I shall remain pessimistic. Ever heard of the phrase” Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me”? Ditto that.

I have been let down, I have been hurt very badly. All i want is just to love somebody and to be loved.

All I can say is that if you love me, if you have gained my trust, earned my love, I am someone who will love you infinitely, indefinitely and incessantly, sacrifice for you, stay by your side, be forever yours and I will definitely walk on water for you.

Life aint a bed of roses.

My favourite phrase that I have heard lately (This was being said to a young girl who was impregnate by her boyfriend) “You need to be at least 30 of age to have your pleasure portal pounded by a 7 pound expanding tissue” -> this is quoted from a line from my favourite tv series Dr. House season 5 episode 1. When I heard this, I was laughing my ass off.

It feels great to get my creative writing gene kicking and running again. It has been dormant for the past year. It was overwhelmed by lazy genes which occupy about 85% of my body. ^^

Till then

i'm still alive and well

2008-12-16T20:05:00.000-08:00

Hello my friends.

I am finally back. Yes, i am still alive and well. I know that I have disappeared for almost a year now. I have been very busy and lazy as usual. Sorry for that. I've decided that i should really post something here to avoid the impression that this blog is abandoned. I should really make it a point to blog more often. this shall be my new year resolution.

Loads have happened throughout this year.. Life is great thus far. This year had been a great year. i shall update you guys later if time permits.

gotta go.
cheerio

auds

being lazy

2008-01-01T02:32:00.000-08:00

Yea, I know that I have not blogged for a very long time. There is only one very good explanation for this: Me, being extremely lazy. I must say that laziness is the crime that I’m most guilty of. My dad always complains that I’m the laziest person alive. Well, surprisingly enough, as lazy as I can be, I somehow do managed to drag myself out of bed and get things done. : p.

Christmas celebration was just mediocre this year. So, there’s nothing much to shout about.

till then

2007 flashback in pictures

2008-01-01T01:58:00.001-08:00

tennis

tennis

and more tennis

bangkok

bangkok

Good Charlotte

Me and bros at Good Charlotte concert

new year celebration 07'

CNY 07

Flashback of year 2007

2008-01-01T01:20:00.000-08:00

With a blink of an eye, the year 2007 has ended. Time sure flies by without you realising it and you just wonder what have you done or not do throughout the year, and the things that you have accomplished this year.

Here’s a flashback of my entire year 2007

January 2007

1^st- Celebrated the New year with my family at the Palace of Golden Horses. Great hotel and even greater food. Had a great time there.

February 2007

14^th- Valentine’s day. Was still single. Celebrated with friends at Rock and Roll Café. Great food and great ambience. Later headed to pure bar to extend the celebration

Chinese New Year (CNY)- Attended a family reunion dinner on CNY eve in KL. Enjoyed spending time with family and relatives. Enjoyed the house visiting sessions where we met up with friends, caught up with each others’ lives, and hanged around at each others’ houses. Not forgetting the delicious CNY cookies, loads of junk food, and filling up our body system with loads of sugar from all the soft drinks we consumed during that period. It’s a wonder that we didn’t go into a sugar shock or something similar to that : p … that would have been very interesting. Plus, CNY is not CNY without the gambling sessions.

April 2007

Attended Good Charlotte's concert. it was a very good concert. Had a freaking awesome time there. Totally love them!!Good Charlotte rocks!!

June 2007

19^th- Lost a friend, Wafi to cancer. Was devastated and very sad. Could hardly believe that he was gone for good.

July 2007

Went to Bangkok with friends. Had an awesome and memorable time there. Shopping was just alright for me, not that fantastic. Foot massage was awesome and cheap. Got cheated by some corny Taxi driver there when he brought us to a dodgy and lousy “adult entertainment” place. We had wanted and planned to go to the best “adult entertainment place”in Bangkok but he told us that it was closed and he brought us to that cheesy place instead. On the bright side, we did manage to see what all of us on the trip had wanted to see when we planned our trip to Bangkok as that was one of the highlight of the entire trip. The show was just ok. But, the performers were boring, they were just old, crinkly, and expressionless…… The Mc D’s pork burger was good.

September 2007

1^st anniversary of my maternal grandmother’s death. Still miss her very much.

November 2007

9^th- The day I turned 24. My family and I celebrated at Rock and Roll Café. Treated my colleagues to Mc D’s and later headed to Pure bar, as usual.Had loads of fun there. I had wanted to treat my bunch of friends to Pak Putra but unfortunately, just as I had arrived at the place, somehow, don’t ask me how, I managed to drive my car up the cement slab. So, that was the beginning as well as the end of my birthday celebration. Bummer! Received great cakes and gifts from family and friends

20^th- Attended the Rafeal Nadal and Richard Gasquet friendly tennis match. Great match. Even more so, because I got to see my favourite tennis player, Nadal, live in action. Had a great time.

22^nd- Attended the Roger Federer and Pete Sampras tennis match. Being able to see Roger Federer live in action was a definite high.

December 2007

2^nd- Fell in love with a great guy.

9^th- Attended My Chemical Romance’s concert at Stadium Merdeka. Great concert, had an awesome time there. Definitely the highlight of the year.

20^th- Ben’s last day in Malaysia. Sent him off to the airport. I will miss him very badly.

25^th- Christmas. Best time of the year!

31^st- Sadly had to work on this day. Had wanted to apply for leave but couldn’t due to the current negative status of my annual leave. Pathetic, I know. : p. Had a nice family dinner. Headed to Pure bar after dinner for countdown into the new year. Had a tremendous fun time there. Have to thank Thomas for forcing me to join him.

March,May, August, October 2007---à just the usual monotonous routine of my mundane life….. Maybe I did something interesting here… but I just couldn’t recall….

That’s a brief summary of my year 2007. As expected, there are good things and bad things. Hey, life is never a bed of roses.

Welcoming the year 2008 with arms wide open : p

2008-01-01T00:58:00.000-08:00

The year 2008 has arrived. A new year more often than not signifies, a new beginning, a fresh breath of hope, a chance to start afresh, about forgetting the past mistakes and learn from them and not live in them and not repeat them and a great chance to do and accomplish things that we didn’t get to accomplish last year. So, there are no lame excuses such as “there is insufficient time” because heck, we have 365 days in a year so stop whining and make full use of it. Live each day meaningfully, do something productive and we would be ok.

Here are a few of my new year resolutions:-

Get more sleep- I never seem to get enough of sleep.
Spend more time with A.K.
Read more good books- I could hardly find the time to read ever since I have started working. Too many activities, distractions and the exhaustion from work is a big contributing factor which disrupts my reading pattern.
Drive more carefully and try not to get involve in any collision of any sort, be it with a tree, car, cow, wall, building.. etc
Exercise more
Travel more
Gain more knowledge—Need to expand my wings beyond the horizon
Spend more time with family and friends
Attend more concerts
Improve myself as a person.
Upgrade myself in terms of career wise.

Well, here are some of my new year resolutions…. I hope you guys out there will accomplished yours too.

Happy new year 2008 and have a great one!

Sometimes..

2007-11-24T08:46:00.000-08:00

O, if you guys have the time, feel free to check out my brother, Aaron's blog. The URL is www.aaronng88.blogspot.com. His blog is quite cool....

My favourite football team which is the England team has failed to qualify for the EURO 2008. That's a bummer!! Steve Mcclaren was sacked the next day and do I think he deserved it? HELL YEA!!!! He totally deserved it! England will go nowhere with him in charge!

Sometimes, I wish, hope, anticipate, dream, desire, assume..
Sometimes I just know that certain things in life are things I'll never get.
Sometimes, things are just not meant to be...
sometimes, I was let down time and time again
to the point where I had given up hope,
just couldnt be bothered by it anymore,
but then again..
I have nothing to lose.. if I continue to....
wish, hope, anticipate, dream, desire, assume..
who knows, somehow, someway, by some miracle
some things are actually attainable...

---> penned by yours truly, Audrey Ng

two great days!

2007-11-24T08:21:00.001-08:00

Last Tuesday (20.11.2007) and Thursday (22.11.2007) have been one of the best days of my life. I went to watch my favourite tennis players, Rafael Nadal and Roger Federer LIVE!!! Oh my God! What else could I say about that experience? Hmm,well it was just a jaw dropping experience. I had been following those tennis grand slam matches, be it the US OPEN, FRENCH OPEN, WIMBLEDON, or AUSTRALIAN OPEN, plus other few tournaments, live on astro, and never would I have imagined in a zillion years that I would be able to catch them playing live, even more so, in my own homeland, Malaysia.... Watching those players live was an absolute dream come true for me.

I really hope to catch them live again someday perhaps at Wimbledon or the French open..... we shall see.......

I'll be posting some pictures of the 2 days soon! Here are just some random pictures of the players!

ROGER FEDERER

RAFAEL NADAL!

PETE SAMPRAS

RICHARD GASQUET

I was driven up the wall.... literally...

2007-11-24T07:23:00.000-08:00

The amount of workload for the past few weeks has been incredibly crazy. The customer has been bloody demanding, ridiculous and senseless... They are seriously driving me up the wall. Let's just say that my project has a couple of hitches here and there and to make matters worse, my manager has asked me to pull it all together fast and according to him, whatever I could do or could not do would be reflected on my year end performance appraisal and which of course would affect my pay raise as well a my bonus.. fuck that!

Those people have no idea that I am already giving my level best. Just because I couldnt get the parts on time to meet their production schedule (they gave me a week even when the lead time is about 12 weeks)they said that I'm not doing my job well enough and that I'm not trying hard enough and that I'm being too nice to my suppliers...that I am just not firm enough...
What.... they expect me to yell and scream at my suppliers??!! no amount of screaming and yelling would bring the parts to them because the funny thing is after I did my research, the entire world do not have the parts as the parts are customised parts.... They refused to accept any excuse....

i am not a bloody magician where i could just snap my fingers and the parts would appear out of thin air.... and neither am I a wizard where I could use a summoning charm...
let's try "accio parts"....... waiting............ tick tock... tick. tock.....

hmm. nothing.....

there.... enough said!!!!!

Ironically, i did indeed literally drove up a cement slab the other day...
just ask my friends, they would be more than glad to share the picture and the story with you....

i have to admit, that was a very scary experience for me. I was actually shaking from head to toe... serious!

Thank goodness I have friends who were there who looked at it at a lighter side and that made me laughed and made me feel a whole lot better...... : p

LONGING FOR WINGS TO FLY

2007-11-04T08:19:00.000-08:00

It sucks to know that your life is not under your control but it's being controlled by others...... At the end of the day, all those screams for freedom and independence to live one's own life eventually falls on deaf ears. And it sucks even more when you know that there's nothing that you could do about it... You cant defy it as there is a force greater than your own, namely, the person who brought you into this world, who gave you a good life, who put a silver spoon in your mouth on the day you were born. Sometimes you would love to defy it.. Love to be given a chance to spread one's wings to fly beyond the horizon, to experience the good life with nothing whatsoever, holding you back.

Well anyway, on 09.11.2007, I would be a year older, a year wiser. Let's see.... what's change?

Nothing! I'm still the same old me! The immature, fun loving, wacky, music and concert loving,guy crazy ME! Perhaps I would be lucky in love this year?? Hmm.....

I'm still single and very available..... so you guys should know what to do ......

Hey, I am just KIDDING!!

ROCK AND ROLL CAFE ROCKS

2007-11-04T07:19:00.000-08:00

i seriously need to remind myself to take my breakfast before playing sports. Last Saturday, when i played squash, i was washed by a wave of nausea and almost threw up. I almost collapsed. I believe it was due to low sugar level in my blood. I was just gasping for air and couldn't really concentrate..... well, lesson well learned.

My parents and bro celebrated my birthday for me yesterday(03.11.2007) because my actual birthday which falls on 09.11.2007 is just too close to my bro, A.J.'s SPM examination. We went to my family's favourite hang out place "ROCK AND ROLL CAFE". We just love dining there as they serve good western food. The atmosphere is good too.

"Radios In Heaven" by PLAIN WHITE T'S

2007-11-01T07:40:00.000-07:00

Your time has already come
and I don't know why
The last thing that I had heard
you were doin' just fine
It seems like just yesterday,
I was laughing with you
Playing games at Grandma's housewell you taught me well, didn't you?
I hope I'm just like you

Do they have radios in heaven?
I hope they do
'Cause they're playing my song on the radio
And I'm singing it to you

You left before I had a chance to say goodbye
But that's the way life usually is, it just passes you by
But you can't hold on to regrets and you can't look back
So I'll just be thankful for the times that I had with you
I hope I'm just like you

Do they have radios in heaven?
I hope they do
'Cause they're playing my song on the radio
And I'm singing it to you
If they don't have radios in heaven
here's what I'll do
I can bring my guitar when my time is up
and I'll play it for you

Tell me can you hear me now
if not, then I can try to sing real loud
What's it like up on the other side of the clouds?
I hope I'm just like youI hope
I turn out to be as good as you

This song is just so darn good

WHAT IF-BY PLAIN WHITE T'S

2007-11-01T07:34:00.000-07:00

What if nobody likes me
what if I don't succeed
What if I give it all that I've got and I still don't got what they need
What if I don't get anywhere at all
Will I consider myself a failure
will I be that small

What if she doesn't like me
what if I'm not her type
What if all the girls that ever like me
Are not the kind of girls that I like
What if I meet the right one and screw it up
Will I consider myself a failure
will I give up

I'm gonna keep trying
getting denied just makes me want it more
I'll keep trying and each time push harder than before
I can't live my life always worried about what if'
Cause what if I die tomorrow
Then I never even lived

What if they don't like me
what if they think I'm a joke
What if they act nice to my face
But they hate me and I don't even know
What if they end up stabbing me in the back
Will I consider myself a failure or will I fight back

One a few of my favourite songs by PLAIN WHITE T'S

Attending my chemical romance's concert instead..

2007-10-28T08:16:00.000-07:00

Linkin park will be heading to Singapore on 13.11.2007 and initially I had wanted to go but My Chemical Romance will be coming to Malaysia on 09.12.2007, so I have decided to attend MCR’s concert instead, plus I have attended Linkin Park’s concert before.

I have finally finished reading the last Harry Potter book, I must say that, that is one heck of a great book!! Totally love it!! Sadly, I heard that Dumbledore is gay…… No wonder he was so nice to Harry in the books…… hmm..

I will be watching both Nadal and Federer live next month and man I cant wait…….

A year has gone and past since my grandmother’s passing and it still feels like it happened only yesterday….. Every single thing I do reminds me of her. Every single moment that we had spent together still lingers in my head.. It’s really hard to move on when someone whom you loved dearly passes on……

i'm finally back.. yet again

2007-10-28T07:53:00.000-07:00

Ok, I know that I have not been blogging for a very, very long time. That’s because my computer was attacked by virus. After that my Internet was down because my phone line was damaged after it was struck by lightning.

Yesterday, I went to Ben’s apartment for a BBQ party. After we have filled our stomachs with food, we started drinking Vodka.. PLAIN Vodka…….. After gulping down the Vodka, we quickly put a cube of sugar into our mouths and took a bite of lemon. The Vodka actually burns your throat and you could actually feel it right down to your stomach. Cool huh

After that, we entertained ourselves by “attempting” to dump one another into the pool. We didn’t manage to get anyone into the pool though. They only managed to get my entire pants wet……ahhaa.

spooky

2007-09-15T03:40:00.000-07:00

Last night, at around 1 a.m. I was watching tv in the tv room, when all of a sudden the phone in the room rang. Here’s the conversation:

Me: Hello?

Stranger ( an old woman): Asked in mandarin, “what is the time now”

I was a little surprised that she asked me that and…

Me: May I know who do you want to speak to?

Stranger ( an old woman): May I know what time is it (she repeated 3 to 4 times) in a row….

I thought it was my mum on the line because she always intercom me and asked me to go to bed as it was late. But it didn’t sound like my mum at all…. And most of all, I find it extremely weird for somebody to call at 1 o’clock in the morning asking for the time….

And then I freaked out a little, you know, now being the hungry ghost month… and stuff and I just muttered a quick : “ sorry, I think you have gotten the wrong number” and slammed down the phone….

The phone rang again and I refused to answer. After that I unplucked my house phone, and I told myself, if the phone did ring again, I would definitely freak out and screamed……..Fortunately, the phone stopped ringing in the tv room but it rang in the next room.. I had it! I sprinted upstairs to my parents bedroom to relay what had just happened.

My mum said that I shouldnt have stayed up so late to watch tv as that was usually the time when the “ghosts”would come out to play……My reply was, “but I thought you said our house is blessed and safe”??!! hmm……

My mum said that maybe it was my late grandmother but I don’t think so because I would definitely recognize her voice when I hear it.

I was so spooked by it that I am literally frightened. When I went downstairs to get myself a glass of water, I actually brought my rosary along. Talk about being paranoid! Hey blame it on my excessive reading of horror story books and too much horror movies.

I tried to be reasonable and logical by consoling myself that ghosts don’t exist and that the phone call was indeed a wrong number dialed but something about it is very freaky and strange………

What do guys reckon??

Spooky eyy…..

i hate blood suckers!!

2007-09-15T03:15:00.000-07:00

Today, I went to jusco to buy my top up card for my phone, and I parked my car at the side of jusco instead of inside jusco as there was no parking space inside. As I returned to my car, I saw a piece of paper flapping at my windscreen and when I took it, it was a bloody fine from the MPMBB folks. Bloody hell, those bloody idiots moved at lightning speed when they are hungry for some quick cash. Ok, yea I know that it’s my own fault for not putting the parking coupon when I parked there but I assumed that it was ok for me not to put the coupon as I would be in there only for a short while and now I am paying the price for not doing so with a hefty compound of bloody 30 bucks. So I went to the booth with every intention to settle the fine ASAP and get on with my life and the lady told me that the office was closed and if I were to pay now I have to pay 30 bucks and if I were to pay at the office I only have to pay 15 bucks!!!! Bloody blood suckers!! Hmm it’s amazing that these bloody people don’t fine their own kind when they simply double parked their cars on the roads to get food for their open fast…….ironic aint it??

great week

2007-09-15T02:35:00.000-07:00

Last Sunday, my family and I sent my bro, aaron to the KLIA airport as he would be departing to India to pursue a degree in Medicine. I would not be seeing him for another 4 months, so yea, definitely I would be missing that guy.. : p

This week itself had been a great week because I only worked for 2 days this week. I was on leave on Monday, reported to work on Tuesday and Wednesday and Thursday was a public holiday in Malacca in conjunction with the 1^st day of the fasting month and my company shutdown on Friday to do some rewiring in my entire company. Cool. Eyyy… Plus I’ll be having an entire week off during the raya celebrations. Man, I love my company…… but then again… we would have to minus it from our annual leave so after all this, I am left with negative 0.5 day of leave remaining. SERIOUS!! How sad could that be?? ahhaa

On Wednesday, me and a few of my colleagues headed to sushi king for dinner at jusco as they were having this special promotion on their sushi. Every sushi costs us only 2 bucks…. So basically it was quite cheap….We queued up for about 1 hour to get in. I only managed to eat 6 plates of sushi and if I were to take in more, I swear, I would puke as sushi tastes a little disgusting after a while…. Hehee

I CANT BELIEVE I DID THAT!!!

2007-08-31T11:47:00.000-07:00

Well, 31st of August is my country's 50th year of independence... yipee i suppose? Honestly I dont feel anything.... except pure happiness just because I dont have to report for work today.. muahahaa..
yea I know that I am a hopeless Malaysian..... but then again.... I dont care.....

I ACTUALLY drank for the first time in my life today. I went out with some friends and we had satay celup for dinner and after that the rest headed to pure bar while I dropped by cafe guan to meet up with my colleagues. After that I went to none other, the one and only PURE BAR. When I said ACTUALLY it's really LITERALLY gulping down that B.E.E.R. Unbelievable, right? well just believe it. I was once completely against drinking and I sort of pledged to be a teetotaler for the rest of my life. Well, somehow I just drank today, so I supposed my pledge is broken dammit....

Anyway, the utmost shocking thing was that I drank 2 whole BOTTLES of Carlsberg beer and shockingly I am still SOBER and I didnt even feel a tinge of tipsiness at all... weird huh.... I just found out that I could actually drink! bloody weird... But I aint gonna make drinking a habit though...... other than that, clubbing at Pure Bar is a bore....... I am literally getting fucking sick of this damn place.... The music sucks, the people there are just plain freaking weird and boring and the live band sucked as well. Thankfully, i didnt end up arriving home drunk... Can you guys imagine the look on my parents' faces when I appear at the doorstep drunk?? I bet they would probably ground me for the rest of my natural life.... muaahhaa

The bright side is tomorrow is only Saturday muhahahahhaha

till then

BAR dinner pics

2007-08-19T07:02:00.000-07:00

Guess who i spotted at the dinner? CCW!! cool eyy

us and harrith

my family and I, looking cool....

the 4 musketeers, we truly believe in the motto "all 4 one and one 4 all" . We are very close.

look at my bro, andre's expression.. he's damn hilarious......

o happy day

2007-08-19T06:23:00.000-07:00

On Saturday, I attended my dad’s annual lawyer’s BAR dinner. Imagine 2 formal functions in a week!! GOSH! 2 dinners back to back!! The highlight: Me, in dresses in 2 consecutive days.. This has got to be record! Hahha. The food was again sucky but as the saying goes, “ behind every dark cloud, there is a silver lining”. And my silver lining for that evening came in the form of HARITH ISKANDAR!! He acted in SEPET by the way.. Anyway, he truly lighted the evening up with his super hilarious and witty jokes… plus he was more or less condemning Malaysians’ crazy behaviour and a little bit about the government as well…. Which is cool….

2 days ago which was a Friday, I went out with my supplier (a guy) from Singapore after work. We had our dinner at the NAAN shop. We talked a lot about stuff and after that we headed to PURE BAR. I asked my colleagues to come along but they insisted that they want me to have some ALONE time with the supplier.. bloody hell………..

But, actually I was kinda glad that they did that…… ahahhaa…. Nah.. I was just kidding….. we are just friends that’s all. Nothing more… nothing less.

One of my colleague, ,Jodie later smsed me and asked how I was and was checking whether I was doing anything naughty or not and just for the kick and to rub it in, I just replied that there was a lot of body rubbing and touching going on and we were about to leave pure bar and search for a hotel room…… then she replied please be safe… and she asked me to drop by seven eleven first……..bloody hell….she actually believed that I’m so “easy” .With that I called her and burst out laughing uncontrollably…ahahha..

I have to admit…. It was truly a great night…. I had fun….and best of all, he paid for everything including the rm 2 parking fees at pure bar……. Ahahahahaa….

1 championship title, 60 bucks gone.......

2007-08-19T06:20:00.000-07:00

On last Tuesday, I took part in my company’s annual badminton competition again. And I won the ladies’ singles competition again for 2 consecutive years in a row. Ehehe.. ahemm….. My fellow competitors made me treat them to MC D’s the next day and it costed me 60 bucks……##$^^^%^%&&$$%^#.. But it was worth it as I trashed their asses on court…nah just kidding…… I am not that great of a player. I was just lucky…: p ahahhaa… I was not that lucky during the doubles event though…. But I have to say that my doubles partner and I gave our all. Well this is the nature of sports…. We win or we lose…….we cant possibly have both, right?

Last Friday, I was chosen by my company along with 9 others to attend the CHIEF MINISTER AWARD DINNER at Renaissance. As expected, the VVIPs gave long and boring speeches. Well, my colleagues and I were kinda rude actually as when those VVIPS were addressing us, we were busy talking and laughing our asses off.. well…. Who cares. The food was sucky as expected. I enjoyed the presence of my colleagues above everything else. Believe it or not after the dinner, we headed to pure bar, here’s the catch, I was wearing a spaghetti strap low cut dress and I was in high heel shoes…… crazy huh…. We clubbed for a while and after that we left as the music was kinda boring…needless to say, my feet hurt like hell after that.. sheesh…..

I wonder who was the bright spark who had invented those feet torturing heels in the first place??!!! …… Trainers (jogging shoes) are the most comfortable shoes of all times in which you would usually catch me in those things. I aint gonna put my feet through hell. Wearing those painful shoes to work is more than enough…… haha…

i love this

2007-08-05T07:31:00.000-07:00

i'm finally free to blog

2007-07-29T01:08:00.000-07:00

For the last few days, I have very sudden urges. No.... it's not any of that sort...... so stop guessing and fantasizing. hehee.. It's actually a musical urge. I just couldn’t stop playing the piano or strumming the guitar. Right now, my fingers are hurting like hell, as a result of too much guitar strumming. My left wrist is a little sore too from all that bending and stretching to reach the cords as my fingers are short......Those of you who plays the guitar should know that the strings do cut your fingers especially when you are learning how to play it. My youngest bro, AJ who is very good at playing the guitar is my personal tutor. hehe

2 days ago which was a Friday, I went to watch “The Simpsons the movie” with my family. Actually I didnt want to watch it because honestly I am not really a fan of the simpsons, but since my parents were going as well so I just tagged along. Honestly the movie was a really good and bloody funny one. Right now, I am beginning to like the simpsons. hehee.. literally.

My bowling tournament has been brought forward to yesterday and as expected, I sucked big time. The shocking thing was that I somehow managed to secure 3 strikes and a couple of spares but other than that my ball somehow more than once find it's way into the gutter. bloody hell. So, no medal here i suppose... but then again... I dont care... I knew I suck at this anyway.. ahhaa .Nevertheless, I had fun goofing around with my colleagues and plus the 2 games were paid by my company.... who cares...... like what my budz told me, I am not a bowling person,as I am more of a badminton and racquet person. ehhehehee.

I watched the movie “Vacancy”with buds yesterday and it was a good movie. It truly makes you think twice about the dodgy motels that you pick to stay for the night. Heehe. Unfortunately we sat beside a couple who kept chattering away incessantly and loudly even when the movie was playing. I bloody hate it when people talk during movies. So, obviously irritated, I just said "shh" in hopes to get them to shut their mouths, but it was fruitless. Then budz did the same thing but the chattering and laughing continued nevertheless. Picture this, you are in the cinema trying to enjoy the movie and someone beside you was talking about eating ipoh char hor fun and laughing loudly seemingly oblivious to the fact that they were actually in the cinema and not in a bloody mamak stall. Budz just couldnt stand their idiotic selves anymore and she said quite loudly, "very funny hor" which made them finally shut the fuck up for good.... sheesh.. some people.....

Today, I went to the "mini bistari.. something" where they sell food and stuff...and they have some games that you could play.... a little like a fun fair and it’s for charity. Usually, I wouldn’t be going to this sort of stuff, the only reason that I went was because my swiss boss had decided to sponsor a few selected employees including yours truly here with a stack of coupons worth 100 bucks for each person. Generous eyy….ahaha.. The place was ok.

Argh, I want to read my Harry Potter book but I dont have the time to do so.... freaking hell. I am stuck at chapter 4...........sigh

Till then

linkin park rocks big time!!!

2007-07-21T08:17:00.000-07:00

I told a fellow Linkin Park fan by the name of Allen that I totally love this new album alot and I told him that i wanna and gonna spread the LP love, but I didnt have the time to do it until now, so here goes.
He listened to the album earlier than I did when it was released and he gave me a brief description on what the songs were like.... Initially I was a little worried that their album might not be good because I was really hoping that it will be good as I dont want to be disappointed. When he mentioned that the songs are like "my december"and that there is this one song which is a religious song my first thought was "o man...... "Fortunately the LP boys didnt disappoint me at all. This album has definitely cemented my love for them. ahhaa.

here's my song review

Given up- i like this song alot! simply because the song is good. Totally love the beat and all.
leave out all the rest----perfect song. Need no further explanation
BLEED IT OUT- my SUPER ALL TIME FAVOURITE. THIS SONG ROCKED THE HELL OUT OF ME MAN!!!! I totally love the influence of their old songs on this track where it's MIKE vs CHESTER... excellent!
shadow of the day--cool song
what i've done-----love the lyrics, love the music, love everything about it
hands held high-----urmm... i love it when mike rapped on this track which reminds me of his excellent fort minor album but the "amen" part is just too weird for me. This is the only track that made me say,"what the hell were they thinking when they decided to write a song like this". I know that they wanna be different but religious and rock..... is a big NO NO. this is weird stuff.
no more sorrow- i totally love the heavy drum beats in the beginning and love the lyrics and the rest of the song. They really should have more of this song on the album.
VALENTINE'S Day- i was quite disappointed with this song but it's ok.....
IN BETWEEN- this is mike's first singing debut. It's a little mellow but it's kinda cool. I love the lyrics. this is one cool song.... but not great enough......though
IN PIECES- I totally love the lyrics once again... the music is cool too...... love it alot!
The Little Things Give You Away--this song is a little too slow when i first heard it but hearing it for a few more times. i love it. This song is about the hurricane Katrina that devastated New Orleans... cool song.

All in all, I am proud of them for releasing this album. Yea, it's a far cry from their first 2 albums and from what most fans loved them for, their fiery rapping and screaming, but that didnt stop me from loving them even more. This change is really good for them and i think it's timely too.

Like what Allen told me, they might lose some fans but then again they will gain a new pool of fans, indefinitely.

As for me, i will always be a LP fan through thick and thin. Right now, I am looking forward to their concert! A little bird told me that they might be dropping by sooner than we think..

to sum it all up, all i can and shall say is that linkin park is freaking good, excellent, perfect. Nothing lesser than that. Their new album is a result of a job well done.

till then.

HIGH ON HARRY POTTER

2007-07-21T07:59:00.000-07:00

why is it that I am the one who worked my ass off and when my project runs smoothly someone else gets the credit for it and when the project has some hitches here and there... i get fingers pointed at me.....All the time I gave my all, my utmost best towards my work but it never seemed to be good enough. is it a sign for me to move on.. well time will tell...

I went to the popular bookstore yesterday after work with every intention to get hold of the latest GALAXIE magazine because the front cover of the magazine has Daniel Radcliffe on it. Plus there is an interview with him in it and plus there is a LINKIN PARK poster in it as well. I went around the whole bookstore and when I couldn’t locate the magazine I asked the bookshop assistant on where I could find it and she told me that they don’t sell it here.... I was like huh? how could a big bookstore such as POPULAR not sell GALAXIE magazine?? It's just bizarre..

Anyway, today, I went to watch the HARRY POTTER movie again (my 2nd time.... I absolutely love this movie....damn good) with budz, ash and andy at the MBO cinema. The decoration was nice and everything but it has a design flaw in the theatre. We chose the backseats like we usually did with GSC as those were usually the best seats, but unfortunately I suppose they didnt raise the floor high enough at the back and as a result of that, our view was completely blocked by the front seats, it could be that we are short though.... regardless, whoever who designed it didnt give it a careful thought about it. I think this is the best harry potter movie thus far after the first installment of course. hehehe

Anyway, instead of seating down on the chair like we were supposed to, ash suggested that we fold the chair and just semi seat on it or should i say lean on it. It's a good idea because at least we could watch the movie without being blocked. The only problem is I am now having a backache. dammit.

I feel bad for budz though because she couldnt see the entire movie propoerly.... bloody MBO. at least now we know that we shouldnt take the A row right, budz.... lesson learned. Other than that I like the atmosphere there as it's more cosy. ehhehe..

o, by the way, tomorrow (sunday) I'll be taking part in my company's annual bowling competition in makhota. It's at 9a.m., and it's freaking early. Wish me luck people, I truly need it. I suck at bowling, most of the time my ball will roll into the gutter or once in a blue moon I'll get a spare or even a strike. Last year I was like the 5th from the back, out of like 20 plus bowlers... muahhaha ... I just hope that I wont be last though..

I hope to collect my latest Harry Potter and the deathly hallows book from Thai kuang as I have prebooked it. Man i cant wait to get my hands on that book. On the down side, I learned from today's papers that Tesco is actually selling it at RM 69.90, bloody hell and i am paying RM 88 for it.

Goodbye wafi, i'll miss you

2007-06-21T06:30:00.000-07:00

I received one of the worst news ever on 19.06.2007. A news which made my heart shatter into pieces. My heart ached like hell especially when somebody whom I loved or cared about moved on to the next world. I was busy with my work in the office when my friend Ash came over to me and broke the news. My friend, Wafi has passed away. I just sat there, stunt! Couldn't believe what I've heard. The only thing that I could mutter was, I thought he had 9 months...

what the fuck happened to the 9 months!! 9 months has turned into just a few weeks.. this is so not fair.....

I wont be seeing him or hearing his voice ever again. Me and a few friends visited him 2 weeks ago at HUKM, when we heard he was diagnosed with a rare form of lung cancer. He seemed optimistic. I was actually really praying and hoping that the chemo would do him some good and he would be up at his feet again, hanging out and clubbing with us, in no time. Sadly, it was not meant to be. i was planning to visit him again this weekend or probably the next but before I could do so...........

Honestly, I am not very close to him. I knew him through my other friends and we did talk a little here and there and he used to hang out with us quite often so technically I used to see him every now and then..... Him not being there again.... will definitely be a very sad feeling.

I remembered when we visited him at the hospital, we even talked about the Good Charlotte's concert.. that we both attended and it's good to know that he enjoyed himself at the concert. Who knew that when I muttered "see you" before we left, it was meant to be the last "see you".. sigh.

Life is really, really short. A healthy guy with a bright future ahead of him with the ability to do many great things and to bring joy and happiness to others is forever gone.

It's time to cherish our lives, loved ones and the things that we have right now. Dont bitch about having a zit on your face or things that you dont have.....be grateful before you wont be around anymore to cherish it.

You wont know what's going to happen to you these days. It's best that we do the things that we want to do and say the things we want to say before you lose the ability to do so, forever. Procrastinating is never a good option as tomorrow might never come.

i'll miss you wafie, till we meet again someday, somewhere high above where we'll be bouncing off clouds and eating the juiciest apples...... till then

what's in my head

2007-05-25T11:52:00.000-07:00

sometimes in life you dont get the things you want.....

you learn that you cant impress everyone.......

you cant trust everyone.....

someone bound to love or loathe you...

people whom you love dies.....

you never really moved on....and never will...

just as you thought life sucks something great happens....

just as you thought your world is dark and grey, there is a silver lining.....

there are bound to be people who will make you smile when you are really down

these are the people who are the dearest to my heart and I will do anything and everything for them.....

it's hard to gain my trust, my love and my friendship, once you have gained it, i am yours forever...

GOOD CHARLOTTE PICS

2007-04-28T10:50:00.000-07:00

this is non Good CHarlotte related.. but I totallylove this pic...

GOOD CHARLOTTE

me and mybro...

me savouring a wholesome kenny rogers meal to gear up for the concert

hey look it's J lo again!!! mind me..... i was checking out some cute guys.... ahaha

JOEL

BENJI

Freaking high on Good CHarlotte

2007-04-28T10:18:00.000-07:00

O my goodness... I am still so freaking high on Good CHarlotte..... I attended their concert on last Saturday (21.04.2007) at Bukit Jalil Stadium with my bros and i must say that i had a marvelous time. Their performance was awesome!! i just couldn't get it out of my head... it's still there you know..... ahahahha... All their albums are good. I'm addicted to all 4 albums by them..... teehehe...

Aside to that, Jason Lo still rocks, and my current favourite Malaysian band is Estranged.. these guys are freaking awesome....One buck Short was kinda good as well. O, I did manage to catch a glimpse of the super cute MTV VJ, UTT. I saw Denise and the cute Malay actor as well but I couldnt remember his name! ahaha

Good times aside, 21st of April 2007 is also the 3rd anniversary of my paternal grandmother's death. So, the next day my family and i went to the cemetery to pay our respects. There was a definite gloom in the air as compared to the day before.

My entire company is sort of invaded by pesky rodents. they could somehow crawl into my closed drawers and eat my food supply, my sweets, chocs and nescafe..... bloody hell... They too made a mess in my drawer.... dammit.. Sadly even if we do catch those bloody rodents, my big swiss boss has a catch and release policy.... no killings are allowed... So, I guess those rodents will be making my company their comfy abode.....and the worse part of it, they too can share my food and get away with it! Bloody hell!! There was this once, a fellow colleague of mine found baby rats in his drawer... can you imagine that?!... GROSS!

Anyway, I am in a good mood since FRiday as I'll be having quite a long holiday this week.... I'll only be reporting back to work on next Wednesday..... yeay.... My brain would be stress free for a few of days

I cant wait to watch Spiderman 3 and the release of Linkin Park's new album. Damn, I 'm bloody anxious..... hahaha

I cant wait to attend the next concert...

That's all

till then.

catching good charlotte live in K.L.

2007-04-20T10:27:00.000-07:00

my entire company is going through some major renovation. They have extended my department and re-carpeted the entire department as well. Which is cool.

Tomorrow (21.04.2007) will be an exciting day for me. i will be catching Good Charlotte live in K.L. Man i am so freaking excited. It will be my 2nd concert after Linkin Park's....
I sure hope that GC wont disappoint me....... * fingers and toes crossed*

ever heard of the phrase "once a bitch is always a bitch" I shall explain no more.... go figure.

I have pre-booked the latest harry potter book. i cant wait for it's release.

I have gotten a new car from my parents. it's a MYVI. I totally love this car.

Sanjaya is finally booted from American Idol.... thank goodness for that.... I have not been watching this show as I have to work till pass 8 or 9pm everyday.. bummer...

The weather is getting freaking warmer........

i have watched Al Gore's documentary DVD on global warming. It's boring but educational at the same time.

I've watched Aaron kwok's movie entitled " after this our exile" it's a great movie which is boosted by a steamy segment of it....... Highly recommended.....

I had wanted to watch Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (they were my heroes) but Malacca is not screening it... freaking lame.

Avril lavigne's new album sucks big time. Ever since her marriage to that annoying sum 41 guy she has became lame and her voice incredibly squeaky, annoying and irritating. she's actually worse then Paris Hilton..... no kidding

I am terribly saddened by the VIrginia tech University massacre.... what the hell was that Korean guy thinking....... bloody fu**ked up useless piece of shit!!.. If he's not happy with his life, why didnt he just take his own life.....no.... he must go on a bloody rampage and take 32 innocent lives with him...... And the bloody coward ended his life after that.. because he didnt want to face "the system".....what the bloody hell is wrong with that guy..... if your life is screwed up.... dont involve the others who has a great life....

oh well, that's about it for now......

Till then...

I will try to post some pics and let you guys know about the Good Charlotte concert.....

still here..

2007-03-18T07:35:00.000-07:00

hey guys.... yea I know that i have not been blogging for such a long, long time....I have been pretty busy and lazy at the same time. so where should I start? For starters, I have finally watched the movie 300!! Man, this movie is just so awesome from the start. Though i must admit that the movie is damn bloody brutal, merciless, gruesome and damn bloody, bloody...
no wonder the 18 years old and above restriction is imposed. But i must say that the storyline is not that great partly because the entire movie is all about war and fighting and brutally killing and chopping peoples' heads off.....

I think from today onwards, I am going to lay off jogging for a while.... this is due to a strain in both of my knees... I feel the pain whenever i am walking or more so.. climbing up and down the stairs... my dad said that the strain is probably due to my excessive jogging sessions. I jogged for like at least 1 hour non stop for at least 3 to 4 times a week.......

last Saturday I played a game of badminton with my bros and my dad. We played singles at first and later doubles. My dad said that I am probably the most dangerous doubles partner in badminton ever. The reason being, while I was his partner, I managed to whack his fingers and later his face.. as a result of that, his face was a little red and swollen..... ahahha

that's all for now... cozz i'm runnng out of things to share with you guys....

i'll be back sooner than you think...

super early morning call for tennis... but it was fun!!

2007-02-04T02:33:00.000-08:00

last friday, immediately after work I went to madam King's to shop for our clothes and accessories for the dance that we would be presenting during our impending company annual dinner. Mind you, it's on the 9th of February at the Renaissance and from what I have heard, loads of VVIPs will be there and loads of ambassadors from different countries will be there as well. Well, it seems like my company is quite well known, partly it's due to the fact that my company is military based. cool eyy. So after shopping we headed to one of our groupmates' house to work on the costume and stuff. And I only reached home at around 12a.m. bloody hell. I am kinda looking forward to my company's annual dinner. I guess it would be fun. O,pictures will tell you guys what I'll be doing for the annual dinner....ahhaha

Today as in a Sunday, I received a super early morning call from my colleague at around 8 something in the morning asking whether I would be interested to join them for a game of tennis at Ben's apartment or not, being half drousy and half asleep... i recalled that I had mumbled a "NO" but he was kinda persistent and I sort of gave in (yea I know that i am weak) and dragged my lazy ass out of the bed and headed to Klebang for a game of tennis...... but nevertheless, tennis is always fun for me.

okay, i do get this question ALOT these days from my colleagues to my HR manager to the cleaner to my friends " why dont you wear a skirt?" and my answer will always be "because i feel more comfortable wearing a pants". I mean honestly... i can sit however I want without worrying about whether the horny men sitting opposite of me are able to see my underwear or not.. stuff like that. I dont have to adjust my skirt each time I sit or stand plus i don’t have to worry about whether my skirt is stuck between my ass crack or not and ... a skirt has this sort of airy feeling which I am not used to........But... my mum has bought loads of skirts for me.... and only time will tell whether I will put those on or not.....ahahaha....till then I love my pants..... o, by the way, it doesnt mean that a pants wearing girl is more tom boyish or more masculine, it's because although a skirt or a dress is more girly and more feminine, we girls usually opt for comfort...... I am always speed walking here and there in the office and the production area ....so wearing a skirt isnt the wisest decision.

There, I am done explaining why I dont wear a skirt....are you guys satisfied??...

Now, please leave me alone!........ sheesh....

damned night safari is closed today.

2007-01-21T09:04:00.000-08:00

Yy and gang came to my house and picked me up at 9 p.m. today (21.01.07).. Our intended destination: THE NIGHT SAFARI!

So there we were all psyched up about the trip and clutching our cameras with every intention to take pictures of the animals there only to be disappointed upon our arrival that the bloody night safari is only opened on fridays, saturdays and public holidays..... (NOT INCLUSIVE OF SUNDAYS).... bloody hell.... so we headed to non other....... Cafe guan where we chatted till about 12a.m. and we headed home..... So, looks like our night safari trip has to be postponed.... Ben actually suggested that we climb across the fence to get in and I told him that, it wasnt the best idea around as we could actually, unintentionally, climbed into the lion's den and we would be it's supper...ahahha.

O, by the way, we are given a day's off tomorrow (22.01.07), a monday, by our company to celebrate some stuff though I think it's Awal muharram or something..... But i am quite sure that many other companies in Malacca is open..... hhahaaha.... the privilege of working in Contraves.... holidays are given based on my boss's preference... cool aint it..

The new season of the American Idol is once again here.... and you could actually see people from all walks of life ... from the weirdest to the most idiotic person, from the cutest to the most vulgar from the most..... you get the idea.... just get your lazy ass away from your computer chair and tune in to catch the American Idol. It's aired on every wednesdays and Thursdays, on Astro's channel 70, from 8pm to 10 pm or on 8tv on every fridays at 9.30pm to 11.30pm and Saturdays from 10.30 pm. to 12.30 pm......

well gotta go....

just a little of this and that

2007-01-20T18:32:00.000-08:00

last friday me and my fellow colleagues went for our dance rehearsal at the renaissance. To our astonishment, most of our dance moves are also highly used in other groups' dance. So, after that day, we then decided that we need a major revamp in our dance routines so that it would stand out from the rest on the actual day. I must really say this, my friend, Ashwin, can really dance!!! He was damn good at strutting his Indian dance moves.. which i must say totally left me in awe.

O, by the way, I have finally fixed my car door and I can finally get into the driver seat the normal way instead of sliding in from the passenger side which I had been doing for the past 2 and a half months simply because I was busy and simply because I was too lazy to send my car to the workshop to get the broken half of my car key removed from the door. I was so used to sliding in from the passenger side that even when I finally got the key removed, i still slide in from the passenger side!! ahha... weird huh.. Just the other day I cut my hand while I was sliding out of my car..... sheesh....when I told my colleagues that I finally fixed my car door.... they were actually pretty impressed that I could withstand having to slide in and out
of my car for such a long period of time. hahaa

my work life has been very, very hectic, I must say. Every single day I will be in my office till around 9p.m....... Which means that I am in my office for around 13 hours......... freaking hell......

O, i have one question for the guys...

HOw do you tell a guy that his fly is open without embarassing him and vice versa? ( I, myself was caught in this sticky situation for numerous times and I didnt have the guts to inform the guy)

Because for all I know, the guy would be wondering why on earth am I staring at his crotch in the first place?? hahhahahha

that's all for now.

painful blisters under my feet

2007-01-13T18:27:00.000-08:00

yesterday I hanged out for like 10 and a half hours straight. Pretty crazy huh? Let me see, I went for my dance practice, I hanged out with my friends and later I went for a drink at Cafe Guan with my colleagues. ehhee. I was quite suprised that my parents were kinda cool about it.

Anyway, on last sunday, after we had said our goodbyes at the KLIA airport, we were actually supposed to head to one utama. Because my colleague who was driving was not very sure about the route to ONE Utama, so he joked that the worst thing that could happen was that we might actually end up in Genting Highlands instead of our designated destination. Suddenly everyone in the van was suggesting and agreeing that we should just head to genting instead. So off we went... to Genting.... Well.. driving up to genting in an old company's rusa (the van) was quite a breath taking experience, if I must say. The van swayed quite violently and to take everyone's mind of the swaying, I started screaming " i want my mummy!!" which managed to get everyone laughing their heads off. So, while we were there, the weather was very pleasant, it was very foggy and cold... and I loved it. My colleagues went to the casino and they lost 900 bucks in like 4 hours!! the curse of Uncle Lim strikes again!!Me and Ben (the new swiss guy) ventured on our own, with this, I had managed to get to know him better. We had wanted to go on the outdoor roller coaster rides but due to the bad foggy, wet and misty condition all the rides were closed. Damn!

last tuesday, during my badminton session, as I was playing a net shot, I somehow knew that the opponent will smash that shot because she was already there in front at the net,so as I just somehow reacted and turned away, she smashed real hard straight into my face... My whole right side of the face turned red and it hurt like hell!!! bloody hell... To forget about the pain, I focused on the funny side about it..... so I ended up laughing again... so typical... I guess my socks were kinda loose and I tied my shoes a little too tight that day, so as a result of that, I went home with painful and large blisters under both feet.

My smart ass of a brother, Aaron lost my digital camera's memory card when he took it with him when he went to Sabah with his friends, so gone are my precious pictures in that camera. I made him buy a new memory card for me but the pictures and the memories that came with them, are forever lost and will never be found.

that's all for now... till then..

sending off a good friend at 9.50 a.m. at 07.01.2007

2007-01-06T06:56:00.000-08:00

I have been very busy lately. I am given a new project to handle which means that I'll have more work to do and less free time, well, it's not that I have any free time though. This whole work itself i was busy hanging out with my colleagues because this week is Roman's last week in Malaysia. We went to Bei Zhan on Wednesday and later went for a 2 hour game of pool, we went to cafe guan on Friday and today itself we went to Pak Putra for some Roti Naan and later we headed to Cafe guan again. Tomorrow morning we will be heading to KLIA to send Roman off. We'll be departing from Malacca at 0630 hours. It's really sad to send a friend who has grown very close to me and my other colleagues off and mostlikely we'll only be seeing each other again in 5 to 10 years time or the worst case scenario..... never. I am going to give him a big hug tomorrow. I have been pretty busy practising my dance for the company's annual dinner as well. I am going to catch 40 winks now as I have to be up and about at 5.15 a.m.

i will post about my new year resolutions and celebration later... till then....

adios

singapore pics

2006-12-17T00:51:00.000-08:00

this pic was actually taken at my grandmother's house. It was a day after my convocation ceremony and we went there to take some convo pics with my grandmother and grandfather.

me before the go kart race.. my car is cool aint it.....

me and bros at Escape park, Singapore

i totally love this pic

me and bros at Orchard Road

me and bro, andre

party

2006-12-16T10:05:00.000-08:00

the time now is 2.15 a.m. date: 17.12.2006 (saturday). I just came back from Roman's 21st Birthday party about an hour ago. We celebrated Roman's birthday at his apartment, in Klebang, Golden Coast Apartment.
We had a pool side BBQ party which was great because we had the whole place to ourselves but unfortunately he didnt ask us to bring our swimming attires along and needless to say, none of us did. So, we didnt get to swim but the sight of the pool and it's crystal clear water is just too tempting that we even thought of skinny dipping instead but none of us had the guts to do so..... muhaahhaa.....mainly because we were trying to deprive the guys from having the time of their lives... muhaahhaaa.

Anyway, Roman bought a whole bunch of imported sausages for the party and it was very delicious. As usual, when it comes to sausages there would be hoardes of dirty thoughts and jokes spilling out of everyones's mouths. We ate uncircumsized imported long, thick, juicy and large sausages today. Can i add satisfying?? ahahaa. Well, the sausages still have their foreskins attached.... hmm...... but they are still good to be eaten though...... The sad news is that, Roman would be heading back to Switzerland in about 2 to 3 weeks time.... sob..... Another new swiss fella is already here and has joined our group and his name is Ben.

Anyway, my dog, Rocky who is always tied at the basement has TESTICULAR cancer.... believe it or not. The first symptom of the disease was lack of appetite, vomitting, blood in it's poop and after that the swelling of the testicles to twice its usual size and later believe it or not the testicles literally exploded. LITERALLY!!!!! So we sent him to the vet and he has his testicles removed... aka.. castrated. Now my poor dog is doing fine and is slowly recovering but the poor brute has to live without his most precious asset.... HIS BALLS!!!

anyway.... i just realised today that my stomach has literally expanded so much that my mum said that I look like I am 6 months pregnant... holly crap!! I had better to something about it before it's too late. My hands and legs might look slim but my belly is huge fellas........ no kidding......

till then

Singapore....

2006-12-10T06:28:00.000-08:00

my singapore trip with my family had been a blast. Whatmore can I say about Singapore.... it's a great country. i have been there tonnes of times but I just couldnt get enough of the living environment there. The streets are clean, the neighbourhoods are quiet, cosy and peaceful. Everywhere is not overcrowded unlike in Malaysia. They actually stop for the pedestrians to cross at the zebra crossings.... malaysians will drive even faster and dont even bother to stop for pedestrians to cross. It usually happens the other way around.... to be more exact. Jaywalking is seriously forbidden. I might seriously consider working in Singapore if opportunity comes my way.......

Anyway on the first day of the trip we visited the Singapore Science Center.. this is totally a must visit place for science geeks and non science geeks.... I love science and the wonder of science never fails to marvel me.....I love the whys and hows.. .. so science rocks!

I saw a mini documentary there on how sharks were being pulled out of their watery abode and their fins being cruelly and digustingly sliced and hacked off, while they were still ALIVE and KICKING and you could actually feel their pain and you could see them struggling to get free from cruel and fucked up men..... and their heads were almost severed in the process and after that.. they were thrown back into the sea to die.... I solemnly swear I'll never touch a shark fin soup again!!! I am actually not sorry at all when sharks counter attack humans.... i dont blame them at all!!!!,

after that we headed to Night Safari..... it's a great hang out place if you love animals....

on the second day we headed to wild wet park... the wet park was disapointing with very, very few rides and so we headed to the dry park instead. The roller coaster rides are kinda kiddish and lame... usually I would shut my eyes on super scary rollercoaster rides.... but , i even managed to hold my hands up high in the air....The pirate ship was like for kids 12 and below.... muhaaha.. then later I had fun racing through go kart tracks on a go kart. There are two tracks.... the amateur and novice ones.... It was a blast. That night we headed to orchard Road to do some shopping and to enjoy the nice christmas decorations.

I went to watch DEJAVU with budz yesterday, it was a great movie I must say.. I totally love the time machine... it's so cool..... Denzel washington rocks! Today was the final prayers for my late maternal grandmother. It was the 100th day of her passing.... I still do miss her alot.... Every single thing I see and do reminds me of her..... I dont know why i am still finding it hard to let go and move on....maybe I just couldnt forget how much she loves me and vice versa. the sucky working week has arrived once again! damn!

SAY NO TO HIP HOP

2006-11-18T11:39:00.000-08:00

Hmm…The radio stations seemed to be overcrowded with hip hop songs and black music these days and I am seriously getting a phobia…… I think I am gonna create a slogan which says “ SAY NO TO HIP HOP” Gone are the days where pop and rock were heavily played on the airwaves…. Linkin Park had better release their new album next year and blow this hip hop rubbish to smithereens!!!! I cant stand it no more!!!!!

JUSTIN Timberlake sucks big time…. I truly wonder what was he thinking when he created such horrendous music…….. it sounds almost unearthly….. sheesh… it’s about time that someone knocks some sense into him… but then again…. One man’s meat is another man’s poison… I like My chemical Romance’s new song though, it’s called “the black parade” you guys should check it out. TOKYO DRIFT is a big NO, NO!! it’s the worst song ever!! It’s damn bloody annoying…… it makes TATU sounds good!!!!! Geez…..

IL DIVO will be in Malaysia this January and I am seriously considering whether to attend their concert or not….But their tickets would be Hell of a BOMB!!!!..... hmmm….we shall see……I might get my dad a ticket as well… as I know that he likes them too…..

I have not exercised for an entire week this week…. DAMMIT….. excluding the fact that I played badminton… but that was it……

My 23^rd birthday has come and past… just in a blink of an eye… It symbolizes 23 years of my existence on this planet earth….. I somehow know that I have angels watching over me and I know that I am blessed.

I am very thankful to be born with a silver spoon and to have great parents. I would never trade my parents for anything in the world…. They are the best…. They had given nothing but the best and to ensure that I have a comfortable life. They brought me up to be the person that I am, today. I knew I was rebellious, mischievous, naughty…..and my hormones surging days almost drove them up the walls….. no, I didn’t do drugs, smoke nor indulge in any premarital sex… it was just my tendency to be rebellious…. …. But I am a very good girl now…. I have somewhat became a deep thinker.. I always think before I act and I realize that every action has it’s consequences…..Muaahahhahaa…..

I guess that it’s time to give them back what they had given me…

POOL MANIA!!!

2006-11-18T11:28:00.000-08:00

My 23^rd birthday celebration was a bLAST!! My birthday is on the 9^th of November and it fell on a Thursday. I reported to work as usual and acted like normal… assuming that no one knew that it was my birthday… I was quite touched and almost got a little emotional when my colleagues in my department celebrated my birthday for me. I didn’t expect them to know when my birthday was.. so… it was really nice of them to actually remember…. I have yet to treat them something in return….. but I seriously plan to do so though… Even my human resource manager personally wished me “Happy birthday” how cool was that? …it truly caught me by surprise! Then, I went for a birthday dinner with my family at AMIGO…. The food was just mediocre though……after that I headed to Asia Havana to meet up with my colleagues.. and I received a SUPERb birthday present when I got there… my damned car key broke when I turned the key to lock my car door…… and part of the key is still stuck at the door till today…One of my colleagues was so kind enough to bring me home to get the spare key and drove me back there to get my car… I was so grateful for his kind gesture. Hehhee. So, till today I have to climb in from the passenger side and slide over to the driver side… cool huh….

Anyway, I had a BBQ birthday party on Saturday and the food was great and I had a great time entertaining my friends…

Then on Sunday, me and my colleagues went to gunung Ledang…..the trip was fun and the dip and swim in the waterfall was truly refreshing….

Then came Monday, the day every working class people dreaded the most.. and I experienced the worse Monday blues ever…. Due to the late partying on Saturday and the waterfall trip on Sunday… I was dead tired…

Anyway, nowadays me and a few other close colleagues hang out quite often together… so much so… that we even have special days on certain days of the week. Tuesdays are usually our badminton and a visit to chelas for dinner day, Thursdays would be our steamboat and a drinking session at Café Guan (this has been a norm) day, besides, the drinks there are good and on Fridays are usually our pool day….. in fact, this week itself we had played pool TWICE!!…. which consists of 2 hours per session…… We played on Thursday and Saturday. Cool huh? I wasn’t really into playing pool… but I am kinda getting a hang of it now… Roman is a good pool partner and coach as well…. Heehe…. You guys should get the idea….. NO… there is no body rubbing involved…. We are good kids……ahhahha.. I was supposed to join them for another drinking session on Friday but knowing that if I were to hang out till wee hours in the morning for 2 to 3 days in a row… it would not be such a great idea…..my parents would be pissed…..So,,.. I would need to space out and plan my hanging out sessions.. hahaa. As I was driving to Klebang to meet up with my colleagues for dinner today….i was stuck in a horrible half hour jam due to the flooded road around the Manipal college area…. I was stuck there for a whole 30 minutes…. Damn it…We had frogs for dinner, though I must admit that frogs are just not my cup of tea…later we headed to… where else… to play POOL…. Why am I not surprise…..and later to Café Guan AGAIN!! We went there twice this week itself!!!!

exploited

2006-11-02T07:07:00.000-08:00

hey there.. yea I know that it has been such a long time since i last posted something here..... well.. my life has been pretty hectic for the past few weeks I must say.....

I've dedicated most of my waking hours to the four letter word that people dread the most W-O-R-K!!

Today itself I worked from 7.55a.m. to 10 p.m.... yea you had better believe this.... I'm tired and senseless and grumpy.... I argued with my shipping officer today.... i must say it is the first time my colleagues saw the fiery side of me..... trust me.... you would not want to get on my nerves when i'm stressed up and tired. I had to finish up some stupid quotation stuff and send it to my customer in Finland. Let me see, the entire project consists of 12 boards with each board contains at least 100 different parts and what do you get? 1200 parts to source and to get good quotations.

To make matters worse, I'm not allowed to claim overtime for the past 6 months due to a very lame reason like the company's cash flow is not so good.... but ironically, we are currently expanding.

Here's a survey for you guys out there...

1. HOW ARE YOU FEELING?----> EXTREMELY TIRED, BUMMED OUT, GONNA RESIGN WITHIN 24 HOURS (JUST KIDDING)------> EXPLOITED---> PISSED

. 2. If you can find a theme song for your feeling at this moment, what is it?---> ONE STEP CLOSER TO THE EDGE--> BY LINKIN PARK??

3. How's youR love life? SUCKS

4. What happened? NO ONE WANTS ME?? DUH...... MUAHAAHHA

5. How's school? I AINT STUDYING NO MORE....

6. What do you want right now? A LAPTOP AND A REAL HIGH PAYING AND SATISFYING JOB

7. Zara or Topshop?--? TOPSHOP

9. what's your LAST MOVIE? STORMBREAKER

10. Name of someone special? AUDREY NG-->HAAHAH

11. Last regret? I DONT KISS AND TELL

12. What is your last entertaiment that you reallyenjoy? HANGING OUT WITH FRIENDS AND WATCHING MOVIES

13. What's your next plan?--> GET A REAL JOB

14. Name a random fact?---> I'M FAT AND I KNOW THAT YOU GUYS KNOW IT TOO!!

16. Your favourite stuff at the moment? MY BED

17. What's your guilty pleasure? INDULGING IN GOOD CHOCOLATES

18. You in 5 years laterr? EARNING A COMFORTABLE LIVING

19. Any words you want to scream right now? SCREW YOU BLOODY F*** S OUT THERE!

20. okay last question and i'm out of question..what is your last annoyance? MY BLOODY STUPID, IDIOTIC, SHIPPING GUY

that's all for now.

till then

OCTOBER ROCKS!!!

2006-10-03T07:39:00.000-07:00

man, i totally love this month.... it's a month filled with joy, happiness, a time for family, friends, t.v., and MYSELF. There's a reason behind this statement of course, let me kindly explain. My company will be closed on the 16th, 23rd, 24th and 25th..... man i'm so happy!!!!

I solemnly swear that by hook or by crook i'll get rid of my love handles and try to fit in the clothes in my wardrobe again.... as I cant seem to fit in at least 50 % of them.... yea... i've seriously put on ALOT of weight due to my work and my extreme greediness when it comes to chocolate, ice cream, pringles, and any other known fattening food and my extreme laziness to excercise. Things are about to change............................i think.....

VEGETARIAN= A HEALTHY INDIVIDUAL----> I SAY IT'S A WHOLE LOT OF CRAP!!

2006-09-24T22:36:00.000-07:00

Moon cake fever is finally here.... the prove?? you dont have to look at the chinese lunar calendar..... I know that it's fast approaching all thanks to my generous suppliers who have continuously sent boxes and truckloads of moon cakes to my company..... So you see... I’ve been eating loads of moon cake since last monday...... And I must say, I have definitely put on a couple of pounds......
Most of you already knew that I'm currently a temporary vegetarian, for 49 days to be more exact, because our monk told us that it would be good for us to do so.....because........ I DONT REALLY KNOW THE ACTUAL REASON, but I do know that it would benefit my grandmother....Hey, I’m not even a Buddhist before this at least not literally….... I’m more of a catholic.... and the only time that I do actually visit the temple is when my mum does so.....and I just tagged along..... but during the wake and after enduring prayer sessions for like 2 to 3 times a day (for 2 days in a row) and 4 times during the last day of wake... I could say... I’m feeling very "buddhist" and the chants and prayers were still lingering in my head the week after the final rites. But it has started to wear of a little... should I or shouldn’t I be grateful?

Being a vegetarian is very, very unhealthy... it would be healthy if you only consume vegetables..... but for us... we are consuming the likes of fake goose+fake chicken+fake fish+ fake duck+ fake luncheon meat+fake prawns+ a whole lot of fake GOD KNOWS WHAT= a whole lot of MSG, oil and cholesterol= rounder and bigger belly= bad health. Instead of obtaining a better bill of health.. I bet one will find oneself having to deal with high cholesterol, and whatever other ailments... These days, the smell of Soya made fake food just makes me gag.... it sucks real bad..... I've not tasted real meat for 20 consecutive days now.... and I’ve like 29 more days to go!!! argh!!!!! but then again.. it's for a good cause.. so it's not an issue. But I seriously DO MISS MY FAVOURITE WAN TAN MEE!!!!!

Last Saturday, I went to my uncle’s clinic in Tangkak with my dad and bro to check the lump in my neck. It is nothing serious , it’s actually a slight infection of my lymph nodes. So, antibiotics should cure the buggers.

Robbie Williams has cancelled his concert in Singapore…..what a bummer! The Killers’new album has been released… I think I’ll try to download it!!! Muahaha…… O, anyway, LINKIN PARK’s much anticipated (for me at least) new album will only be released next year… I sure hope that it’ll be darn good. I mean, I know that it’ll be a BOMB!!!! LINKIN PARK is forever good!!! Haaha…. I cant wait for their next visit to Malaysia or Singapore…. I wont give them a miss, for sure! The music world would never be the same without LINKIN PARK!!

On the bright side……I’ve finished watching both seasons of DR. HOUSE. This TV series is highly recommended….. no one should give it a miss…… It’s darn addictive too… And I must say and I’m sure most DR.HOUSE’s fans would agree with me…. we somehow will gain some medical knowledge and know about certain illness and diseases after watching it. I’m now digging into NUMBERS… this series is cool too….I want to get my hands on Desperate Housewives season 2!!!!

I’m supposed to join my colleagues for a trip to Cameron-Ipoh-Penang but unfortunately there’ll be a big prayer session conducted for my grandmother to mark the 49^th day of her passing… so…. I’ll just have to give it a miss… sigh….

devastated

2006-09-11T06:14:00.000-07:00

I returned to work today after a 4 days hiatus. As expected there was more than a pile of work screaming for some attention from me. As I sat down at my workstation this morning... there was a heavy feeling in my heart. I kept flashing back to the life changing incident which took place on last tuesday in which has left a big gaping hole in my heart. Every single memory of her would automatically bring tears to my eyes. I sort of teared up a little this morning at work... well just a little as i didnt want anyone to know that i was crying or something... I'm seriously finding it extremely hard to let go. I was soon left with no time to feel sad as i was soon drowned in my work.

My beloved maternal grandmother has left us for a better place on last tuesday.. for good. I've never shed so much tears in my entire life before... Let me see.... i cried almost the entire tuesday i must say and on and off and here and there. I knew this day would come...... but it was sooner than i had expected.

Then, there came a young monk who i personally think is kinda cute..... who conducted all the prayers during my grandma's wake. He was truly a nice guy. He cracked jokes to bring smiles and laughters to our otherwise tear-filled eyes. What's more he brought comfort to my grandfather...... He tried his very best to take our mind of the saddest part of our lives by asking us to help him to decorate my grandmother's altar and coffin. Those of you who came to the wake... the decorations that you saw was the result of my bros', cousins', the monk's and my hard work ok.... we worked till wee hours of the morning on tuesday.

The monk soon realised that my cousins, brothers, and I are a bunch of bananas, you know, people who calls themselves chinese but can hardly speak a word or two of the language, but most of us can understand the language. so he tried his best to converse in english....with us, albeit, it's totally broken for example: Crabs became crabbeds, foolish became frolish..... and many others....and he knew that we were laughing at his english.... man we are evil. ahaha

I would like to thank my friends who really made the effort to attend the wake and to pay their last respects to my grandmother and more importantly they gave me the additional emotional comfort (you guys know who you are). A big thank you to those who called and offered words of comfort and of course to those who smsed as well.

i was very close to my grandmother as she took good care of me since the day i was born. I would forever miss her smiles .i seriously miss every inch of her.... i miss her cooking skills.... her specialty has got to be POPIAH and CHICKEN RICE.

I'm sad, i'm heart broken, i'm devastated. Nothing more.......

Only time will tell...... whether i will be able to be my normal self again.

It takes more than a miracle to heal a broken heart...

I have to be strong for my grandfather's sake as for all my life i KNow that there is no other human being that loved my grandmother like my granfather did and I know he still does. In fact my entire family, close or distant, loves my grandma very, very much as she is one of a kind.

Goodbye Mr. Schmidt...

2006-08-18T22:15:00.000-07:00

last saturday,I went to one of my swiss boss's (Mr. Schmidt's) house for a farewell gathering as he would be leaving my company as he has been posted to China.... I popped in for a while as after that I had to join my family for my dad's annual lawyers' BAR dinner. That was the reason why I couldnt make it for my friend's farewell gathering....

My convocation ceremony was a blast.. and it would definitely be etched in my mind, forever. Walking across the stage to receive my scroll was the most poignant but proud moment in my entire life... even more so with the presence of my beloved parents, brothers and friends. I've to admit that I was suffering a little from stage fright.... the only thing that I could think of was "grab the scroll and get the hell out of there" muahahhahahhaah..... mahathir was there too and he was still as popular as before...

Anyway, as for my graduation gifts... my maternal grandfather gave me some cash, my parents gave me a mini hi-fi set which i loved so, so much and a special present from my mum- a sony mp3 player... with the size of 1 GIG!!! believe it or not... It was totally a great moment....

As for my company's annual badminton competition, i fared pretty well... i shall say....I won gold for women's singles and doubles... but then again there were only 10 singles participants and only 6 teams for doubles... ahhaa... my advise is.... dont ever underestimate the ability of a 40 something auntie's badminton skills ok.. i almost lost to her.... ANyway, I wanna say a big thank you to my friends who were there to support me..... without your presence i might have actually lost the singles match... haha... o, I wanna thank my bro, andre too, for playing the role of a coach that day..... i'm not too sure whether his tips worked or not as i was too overwhelmed with pressure...to actually execute them..... ahha...

Anyway, last thursday, we had a farewell gathering for one of my swiss bosses (mr. Schmidt)..as he would be leaving us for shanghai, china... we went to a place around klebang called " the laman" the place was very cosy and nice but the food was just OK..... and on friday he officially left us....
it was a sad moment for all of us as he was the nicest amongst the swiss.....a few my colleagues actually cried... haha...not me though.... all of us will definitely miss him ALOT.....especially his booming laughter which always ended sounding like a chicken being strangled and one cant help but to laugh along whenever one hears it. We'll miss his smile, his greetings.. his friendliness.... his everything.... his concern... his humble and down to earth.... persona... overall he is one jolly guy.... Goodbye Mr. Schmidt... until we meet again someday....

o, on last wednesday, i had to work till 3a.m. in the morning (at home) to finish up some office work to avoid being slaughtered when i report for work the next day... yea.. it's a matter of life and death...

i'll post a couple of pictures later...

i was supposed to join a couple of friends for a movie today but unfortunately my maternal grandmother was not doing very well and I had decided to give the movie a miss and spend some time with her in the hospital instead....

gotta go..