A Place for my Head: October 2004

Monday, October 25, 2004

nobody's listening

i woke up at 7.15a.m. this morning inspite of the continuous and irritating constant hammering at my bedroom door...since 6.30a.m. i guess i was just too tired. well honestly, how on earth will you not be tired when you only had like one and a half hours of sleep the previous night. well, i watched the Manchester United vs Arsenal match last night. and the good news is that Man. United won 2-0... however i am not impressed by van nisterooy's game yesterday.. i think he should get a grip of himself and start playing real football instead of pretending to be tackled and trying to get free kicks and penalities... all i want to say to van nisterooy is get a life and play real football!! and he should be laughing cozz... he finally didn't miss his penalty kick!! christiano ronaldo played very well yesterday.. and he should be given more credit.. wayne rooney scored a second goal for man.united.. so i guess he's ok.overall man.united's game yesterday was quite ok...but eventhough i'm an avid Man.united fan... i seriously think that the referee was a bit bias... as when players like wayne rooney, van nisterooy,and a few other players played quite dirty by pushing and tackling players from the back, which is quite a serious offense.... the bloody referee didn't even give a yellow card when it was quite obvious that the players named above deserved one for their ruthless tackles..all the stupid referee did was just awarding arsenal free kicks....

but.. when one of the arsenal players accidentally hit or pushed one of the players from man.united, and when the replay was shown and it was proven that it was not a fowl.. the idiotic referee freely lashed out his yellow cards when the arsenal players didn't deserve them at all...talk about unfair treatment...sheesh.. i would prefer a clean and fair match...

there are 2 possible conclusions: 1) the referee favoured Man.United more than arsenal... and 2)the referee was bribed...

so, make your pick..

but arsenal was not playing up to their usual standards... theiry henry was not playing THE GAME!!! freddie ljungberg played well yesterday...viera was playing crap!! and i think lehmann, the arsenal goalkeeper, was a little too cocky.. and sad to say arsenal failed to maintain their 100% winning streak....
well that's about last night's match... after that i stayed up to do my assignment.. till about 3a.m. and i tried to sleep after that.. but the stupid neighbour's irritating puppies kept on whinning the whole damn night... and i couldn't sleep at all!!! so, i tried listening to music but i guess it's worse coz' i tend to concentrate on the music and lyrics and so basically it's not a good antidote for sleeping... and i tried singing myself to sleep.. mind you i sang loudly!! but it was useless. so i couldn't sleep till about freaking 6a.m. but i guess somehow in between i must have fallen asleep as by the time i actually woke up.. it's already 7.15a.m. sheeshhh..

and then, i had to deal with the boring lecture.... which made me start to think deeply.. i mean really deep... about whether have i chosen the right course all along..

mind you i'm majoring in Human resource management... which is a bore... and the only interesting part of my course is when we are required to search for companies and hotels and trade union offices to conduct interviews for our reports... that's the only fun part..and i really learned alot from all those outdoor excapades... other than that i hate my bloody course...

if i can drop out of this course now.. will be better..and i'll be the happiest kid on this planet..

i have always wanted and planned on studying law.. and not business... take a look at my ambition column.. since kindergarten.... till secondary school.. it has been my one and only ambition and passion to study LAW!!! not business, medicine, engineering or anything else..i'm really keen on studying law...and it has always been my dream to do law!! but due to some unforeseen circumstances and a few decisions made by certain authority figure in my life... i'm stucked with this bloody course... well.. i did tell them that i want to do law and not business and did they listen... NOOOOOOO!!!! they enrolled me in this freaking university with the freaking course that i absolutely hate!!! but i just had to deal with it...sigh....and this bloody course has made my life a living hell!!!

well, i've decided that i might be going for a second degree after i am done with this bloody course and guess what it is!!!! LAW!!!!!!

and as if this course is not bad enough.. i had to go through damn subjects like accounts, statistics, finance..... all bloody crap.....sheesh....
all i can say is that business and I don't cLICK!!!

and i don't plan on spending 30-40 years of my natural working life, practising HR!!!!! and i just can't picture myself doing it...it sucks!!!

so my beloved LAW!!! here i come...

i had to spill my heart out... cozz... the truth is.... I'm not HAPPY with my damn course!!!!!

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

my new found hobby!!

hmm... i'm too lazy to think of a title for this blog....

anyways.... i think i'm getting lazier as i grow older ... why you may ask.... well.... i'm finding it super hard to get my big ass out of the bed!!! well, i just feel that things are getting a little out of hand hehhee... well.... if my class is scheduled at 8.00a.m. and i am supposed to get my butt up at 6.30a.m...... but i tend to snooze till like 7.30a.m.... by then i'll panic a little... as normally i must take a shower before i leave my house.. coz... if i don't i'll feel uncomfortable.... so by the time i finished showering and washing up... it'll be like 8a.m..... so by the time i reached campus... it would be around 8.20a.m.... so technically.. you can always catch me creeping into the lecture halls...hmmmm.... i wasn't like this before....
hmm.... must be the new extracurricular.. activity that i had just recently discovered...hmm... i guess that's the reason why i'm so bummed out every morning...you might ask... what extracurricular activity.... well.... it's a secret... locked deep inside me.... and no one can and ever will find out....not even if you hang me upside down from a twelve storeys high building... unless .... nope... there will never be any exceptions in revealing my nightly secret activity...
i'm strong.. so...i'll try to cut down on those activities.. hmm.. maybe...i'll do it on alternate nights....it'll be hard though.. coz... i'm so addicted to it....and i think about it 24/7... am i going crazy.. have i lost my mind..hmmm... maybe it's all part. of **b****..... ok.. that's a clue... i'm not giving anymore ..so go figure...it's taking over my life arghhhhh!! it even distracts me from my studies at times....but one thing is for sure....nah.. i'm not gonna tell you..you'll definitely know what it is....
guys.. please don't jump into any conclusion that i'm addicted to cocaine, marijuana, cigarettes.. or any other forms of illegal drugs....
trust me..it's none of those...
what i am doing.. is very very healthy....
so.. i thought it'll be fun to leave you guys guessing...
anyways.. it's not like i'll be revealing it to you people though.. the secret stays with me...
the biggest clue is that not even my parents or any single living soul in my house knows about it....
and by the way it is legal...

so.... happy guessing..

Friday, October 01, 2004

a final goodbye...

another day is going by,
i'm thinking about you all the time,
there are many things swirling in my head,
so many of them were left unsaid.
somehow i can't put you in the past.
sometimes i wonder, will you remember me?
coz' i know, i won't forget you.
i'll forever cherish the special moments we had together.
it's sad to know that you've gone away,
a part of me is gone,
and i'm not moving on.
i know you're never coming back.
i wish i could have told you,
the things that i have kept inside,
but now, i guess it's just too late..
so many things remind me of you,
and whenever, i see grandpa, i'll think of you,
i know i have to move on, as life goes on,
i know that whereever i go, whatever i do,
you'll be there with me always.
i remember it clearly,
the day you slipped away
and i just know, it'll never be the same again.
i've had my wake up,
that life is short!,
and nobody knows what could happen this second, this minute, the next hour, the next day!,
one may be in superb health one day, and one may be gone the next!,
so i'll just do what i want to do,
and i'll live everyday like it's my last day..
sometimes there's a time when one must say goodbye,
though it hurts, one must learn to try,
i know i've got to let go,
coz', you, like the light of a bright star,
will keep shining in my life.
you'll be in my heart forever.
this is goodbye,
one last time.
i miss you,grandma...