A Place for my Head: June 2009

Thursday, June 25, 2009

when Tesco revolves around Auds- auds works 24 hours

Hey, it's 11.15pm right now on a cosy Thursday evening. i'm still working my butt off in my office. In a whilst time, i'll be heading down to the store and start my night shift which will drag on till probably 7am in the morning. My department, chill and frozen is currently doing a major range change for the frozen products which involves my products and albeit it's not my job to work in the store but it's my products which means indirectly it's my job. gedddit?

So, i'm working 24 hours. bummer. This is already my 2nd time working 24 hours non stop. I'm feeling a little bit tired eventhough my night shift has not even begun.

Well, this is a day in the life of a Tesco buyer. You have to work your butt off, rain or shine, sun or moon, day or night. We have been brainwashed to be dedicated, loyal and have an ultimate passion for TESCO. It's against all my lazy genes but the brainwashing is pretty much effective.

i can foresee that Auds will be working more 24 hours shifts in the near and not so distant future.

God knows when i might actually be completely burned out.

oh well, little auds has to go now and work.

sometimes in life, not everything is about the money, not everything is about the career, not about climbing up the corporate ladder and be Mr. Big ass shot in the corporate world. not about Being driven around by a chaffeur in a huge ass limousine, not about living in mansions. not about flying around first class and not about flying in private jets. not about having an explosive amount of money.

Sometimes, all one need in life is to be loved. money, career, mansions, fat pay cheques aside. Dont kid yourselves, love is the most powerful omen of all.

Since i've already screwed up my love life to be in love and loyal to TESCO, i might as well, work my ass off, and be some big ass somebody in this corporate world.

But then again, all the respect, money and supersized ego and no love, what is there to live for? Nought.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

A public apology from AUDS

It has been 4 months now. I am an android, capable to perform daily routines as has been programmed into me, nonetheless void and pretty much nothing else. I would like to sincerely apologise for my oblivion, own selfishness, stupidity, ignorance, for posting the wrongful previous posts. It was sensitive and personal and private. It should be kept private. I was too emotionally driven, too naive. I was overwhelmed with sadness, disappointment, and a little bit of anger. I didnt realise back then, it would be offensive and hurtful. i didnt mean to cause any trouble. I didnt do it intentionally to hurt someone or to rub it into his face. i didnt mean to make anybody sad, disappointed and angry. I am sorry. I should have known better, and reacted to it more maturely. But then again, this blog, is the only outlet for me to vent my feelings and to pour my heart and soul into it. Other than this, my close friends are my punching bags. Thank you very much for taking in my punches, my swears, tears and complaints. Thank you very much again for being tolerant with me as i know i can be a real pain in the ass. A few friends were close to strangling me and hang me upside down to slap me around to wake me up. Eventhough as much as they have tried and most of them have given up on me, except budz, sorry to say that everything that they tried, are to no avail, till today. I guess i wont be pouring much stuff here anymore.

So, it would be my utmost pleasure to inform everyone that i will be removing the few offensive posts to prevent and stop offending and hurting anyone.

Things just always doesnt turn out the way and work the way that we wanted them to be. wouldn't this world be an ideal place to live in and wouldnt life be oh so blissful, if we get what we want. But then again, I always believe that the higher power above always has HIS own masterplan for each and everyone of us. When a door closes, the other opens.

It takes two to tango and also two to un-tango. So, it's never a one sided thing. Should stop to take the blame and be too hard on myself.

A wise man once said " Those who lives only in the past and present, will never see the future"

I have become a mega HUGE fan of German Rock band, RAMMSTEIN!!. God they are awsome!!

Went to Tioman, went scuba diving, played beach soccer, was fun, got sunburned. Too lazy to elaborate further.

Oh well, eventhough things doesnt work out now, who knows what the future brings. I have always trusted HIS plans. No reason to doubt it now. It's best to just cool off now.

Adios mi Amigos

i might be back, might not as this might be my last post to prevent anymore trouble.