A Place for my Head: September 2006

Sunday, September 24, 2006

VEGETARIAN= A HEALTHY INDIVIDUAL----> I SAY IT'S A WHOLE LOT OF CRAP!!

Moon cake fever is finally here.... the prove?? you dont have to look at the chinese lunar calendar..... I know that it's fast approaching all thanks to my generous suppliers who have continuously sent boxes and truckloads of moon cakes to my company..... So you see... I’ve been eating loads of moon cake since last monday...... And I must say, I have definitely put on a couple of pounds......
Most of you already knew that I'm currently a temporary vegetarian, for 49 days to be more exact, because our monk told us that it would be good for us to do so.....because........ I DONT REALLY KNOW THE ACTUAL REASON, but I do know that it would benefit my grandmother....Hey, I’m not even a Buddhist before this at least not literally….... I’m more of a catholic.... and the only time that I do actually visit the temple is when my mum does so.....and I just tagged along..... but during the wake and after enduring prayer sessions for like 2 to 3 times a day (for 2 days in a row) and 4 times during the last day of wake... I could say... I’m feeling very "buddhist" and the chants and prayers were still lingering in my head the week after the final rites. But it has started to wear of a little... should I or shouldn’t I be grateful?

Being a vegetarian is very, very unhealthy... it would be healthy if you only consume vegetables..... but for us... we are consuming the likes of fake goose+fake chicken+fake fish+ fake duck+ fake luncheon meat+fake prawns+ a whole lot of fake GOD KNOWS WHAT= a whole lot of MSG, oil and cholesterol= rounder and bigger belly= bad health. Instead of obtaining a better bill of health.. I bet one will find oneself having to deal with high cholesterol, and whatever other ailments... These days, the smell of Soya made fake food just makes me gag.... it sucks real bad..... I've not tasted real meat for 20 consecutive days now.... and I’ve like 29 more days to go!!! argh!!!!! but then again.. it's for a good cause.. so it's not an issue. But I seriously DO MISS MY FAVOURITE WAN TAN MEE!!!!!

Last Saturday, I went to my uncle’s clinic in Tangkak with my dad and bro to check the lump in my neck. It is nothing serious , it’s actually a slight infection of my lymph nodes. So, antibiotics should cure the buggers.

Robbie Williams has cancelled his concert in Singapore…..what a bummer! The Killers’new album has been released… I think I’ll try to download it!!! Muahaha…… O, anyway, LINKIN PARK’s much anticipated (for me at least) new album will only be released next year… I sure hope that it’ll be darn good. I mean, I know that it’ll be a BOMB!!!! LINKIN PARK is forever good!!! Haaha…. I cant wait for their next visit to Malaysia or Singapore…. I wont give them a miss, for sure! The music world would never be the same without LINKIN PARK!!

On the bright side……I’ve finished watching both seasons of DR. HOUSE. This TV series is highly recommended….. no one should give it a miss…… It’s darn addictive too… And I must say and I’m sure most DR.HOUSE’s fans would agree with me…. we somehow will gain some medical knowledge and know about certain illness and diseases after watching it. I’m now digging into NUMBERS… this series is cool too….I want to get my hands on Desperate Housewives season 2!!!!

I’m supposed to join my colleagues for a trip to Cameron-Ipoh-Penang but unfortunately there’ll be a big prayer session conducted for my grandmother to mark the 49^th day of her passing… so…. I’ll just have to give it a miss… sigh….

Monday, September 11, 2006

devastated

I returned to work today after a 4 days hiatus. As expected there was more than a pile of work screaming for some attention from me. As I sat down at my workstation this morning... there was a heavy feeling in my heart. I kept flashing back to the life changing incident which took place on last tuesday in which has left a big gaping hole in my heart. Every single memory of her would automatically bring tears to my eyes. I sort of teared up a little this morning at work... well just a little as i didnt want anyone to know that i was crying or something... I'm seriously finding it extremely hard to let go. I was soon left with no time to feel sad as i was soon drowned in my work.

My beloved maternal grandmother has left us for a better place on last tuesday.. for good. I've never shed so much tears in my entire life before... Let me see.... i cried almost the entire tuesday i must say and on and off and here and there. I knew this day would come...... but it was sooner than i had expected.

Then, there came a young monk who i personally think is kinda cute..... who conducted all the prayers during my grandma's wake. He was truly a nice guy. He cracked jokes to bring smiles and laughters to our otherwise tear-filled eyes. What's more he brought comfort to my grandfather...... He tried his very best to take our mind of the saddest part of our lives by asking us to help him to decorate my grandmother's altar and coffin. Those of you who came to the wake... the decorations that you saw was the result of my bros', cousins', the monk's and my hard work ok.... we worked till wee hours of the morning on tuesday.

The monk soon realised that my cousins, brothers, and I are a bunch of bananas, you know, people who calls themselves chinese but can hardly speak a word or two of the language, but most of us can understand the language. so he tried his best to converse in english....with us, albeit, it's totally broken for example: Crabs became crabbeds, foolish became frolish..... and many others....and he knew that we were laughing at his english.... man we are evil. ahaha

I would like to thank my friends who really made the effort to attend the wake and to pay their last respects to my grandmother and more importantly they gave me the additional emotional comfort (you guys know who you are). A big thank you to those who called and offered words of comfort and of course to those who smsed as well.

i was very close to my grandmother as she took good care of me since the day i was born. I would forever miss her smiles .i seriously miss every inch of her.... i miss her cooking skills.... her specialty has got to be POPIAH and CHICKEN RICE.

I'm sad, i'm heart broken, i'm devastated. Nothing more.......

Only time will tell...... whether i will be able to be my normal self again.

It takes more than a miracle to heal a broken heart...

I have to be strong for my grandfather's sake as for all my life i KNow that there is no other human being that loved my grandmother like my granfather did and I know he still does. In fact my entire family, close or distant, loves my grandma very, very much as she is one of a kind.